my 2009. :)

Kung akala ko dati ang tanda ko na, nako. May itatanda pa pala ako. Dahil 2009 was the year I turned 18! Yes, legal na sa wakas. I thought na wala nang tatalo sa 2007 and 2008 ko. But I was wrong. Haha. Sure enough, 2009 topped the past years.


And here are the highlights of this amazing year. :)

Syempre, why not start the year with a new look? Hehe. After having my waist-length hair cut last September 2008 until above my shoulders, I went for an even shorter, even funkier and even more chic hairstyle.


Then the Baguio Field trip with my Devcomsoc Batchmates plus King and Chin was an awesome experience too. We went to see the Panagbenga festival, we sang songs in the van, we took amazing photographs and we bonded for three days straight. Haay. I will never get tired of them. :)

Winning as the College Representative for the College of Development Communication was no easy victory. Sure enough, this provided a lot of challenges for me within the year. I also became more active and more aware of issues inside and outside the campus.

Joining a sorority was something I have always wanted to do since high school. Something was always just holding me back. College came and I felt the urge even more and finally, I joined the UP Theta Epsilon Sorority. :)

Signals '08 celebrated our first anniversary as members of the UPLB DEVCOMSOC. We went to Enchanted Kingdom and had a month-long celebration filled with midnight walks and drinking escapades. :)

Making Waves 2009 and the 37th Anniversary of UPLB DEVCOMSOC was a tiring but fulfilling way to end the year. We'll always be on top of the odds. :)

Area51 closed down but we found a new place: IMPOUND. Different place, different management, but still the same best group of friends and gamers. :)

Ihsa came back for a visit but also left. But not before having some super bonding moments and talks enough to last until her next visit. :)

At syempre, 2009 was also the year I met Mr. Henry Mark Q. Binahon. Weee! Eto super highlight talaga! Hehe. Gusto niyo malaman paano ako patawanin at pasayahin? Tanong niyo siya, pero I doubt hindi niyo parin magagawa as well as he does. :) Hindi ko rin naman inexpect na magkakaboyfriend ulit ako pero diba nga, kaya dapat hindi tayo nageexpect, para may surprises tayo. :) I'm one happy girl ngayon dahil sakanya. Sorry cheeeeesy. Haha. I love you :)

Few more highlights:
*finally moving out from my grandparents' house and experiencing college life at its best. :)
*heading the Program Committee for Making Waves 2009
*a lot of ups and downs during the middle of the year but everything's still intact.
*becoming an Elder for ThE Sorority :)
*my constant weight gain and loss.haha!
*riding on a truck with my sisses plus Mark and Arjay and a bunch of strangers because the water was waist-high during Ondoy. :)))

Andami rin pala highlights ng 2009 ko. Haha. Sobra pa sa inexpect. So once again, wag nga magexpect. Haha! Pero seriously, isa ito sa pinaka eventful and dramatic years. Or maybe, parang napansin ko, as the years go by, each becomes more and more eventful.

I can't wait to see what 2010 will bring us. :)

taken during the Signals '08 Enchanted Kingdom expedition
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college life

(just for the sake of posting something.)
what my college days are made of: (7 essentials)

1) BORDO BURGERS: big burgers, reasonable prices, near area51, and a great atmosphere for bonding with friends. hmm so the burger preparation is a bit long and calls for patience, but so what? while waiting for the burgers, you can talk to your companions about anything. there's just something about the place that makes you want to stay even after you've already finished your burger. my favorite? HELLFIRE with lots and lots and lots of hotsauce! :D

2) AREA51 PARTIES: birthday parties, celebration parties, or wala lang parties. any excuse just to party and eat lots of food and hang out with the people at area51. pizza, sisig, beer, fishballs, zagu, piknik, cashew nuts, pansit, pandesal, and munchkins. we can party anytime. and as we party, we talk about dota, about acads, and basically anything. and sometimes, we even have mini-film showings of youtube videos. area51 is really a family.

3) BUKO de FRUTAS: nothing beats a huge fresh fruit salad with buko for only 49php! plus, it's just across the street from area51. spell sobrang sulit! hehe. plus it's refreshing at sobrang nakakabusog! may mango, melon, watermelon, at syempre buko. haha. aaah! tapos nung last week ko lang napansin na may lychee din pala! aaw. :( ohwell. try nyo, must-eat ito especially on super duper hot days in elbi.

4) KUYA VINCENT: we used to call him Manong Fishball, but now we know his real name. his spot is smack in front of area51. aside from being the official provider of the official fishballs, squidballs, kwekkwek, kikiam and chickenballs of area51, kuya vincent is also the local provider of coins! he's also considered to be part of the tropang area51. masayang kakwentuhan, at palagi pang may libreng fishball na dagdag!

5) DotA: not a day passes without the mention of the word "DotA". sometimes we go through a day without playing this game if we're really busy but still, the word is mentioned. when one enters the shop, you can hear these words at once : "tara, dota! scare?" boys, girls, kiddies, oldies play this cursed game. fun, addicting, yet also the reason why students cut classes, skip meals and go home late at night.

6) eLBi square: still right across area51, here one can choose from a multitude of eating places and tambayans. madalas sa Eat Sumo kami kumakaen or nagpapa-deliver na lang.usually, students who are trying to save money eat the stuff at Hot Plate, the first place you'll see when you enter the Square. hmm.anu pa ba. CRIBS, huling tambay ko dito ay summer pa. ang mahal kasi, but fun. :)


7) AMIGAS' CR SESSIONS: the perfect way to end a day full of headaches, sunburns and academics. the door at the back of area51 contains a CR, a bodega, and an ashtray. i don't smoke-i have never even tried it. only one amiga smokes, but the rest of us like to spend time inside that small room just to laugh aloud, to cry, to comfort one another and to simply talk about stuff. it doesn't matter to us if the room smells of yosi or if we're surrounded by garbage bags. this room is where we really bond.

yup. 7 essentials of my college life! to cut it short: friends, food and dota! haha! tomorrow, i'm officially going to be an OF (Old Freshman) as i pay for my tuition and get my form 5. time flies? sure does. xD

it started with a game

such awesome friendship. you'd never expect it started just because of some game.

carabao park, late at night. three girls sitting side by side. jizza,aryan and me. talking. about dota, about area, about guys, about girls, about memories. and then we suddenly talked about our current set of friends.

we call ourselves the DotA-amigas.mainly because we are girls, who play DotA. before summer, there were only a few girls who played this game. as usual, because guys are the rulers in this domain. so we stuck together. magyayaya. "sige, tara!" kanina, we laughed as we reminisced those days. nung wala pa kaming alam sa dota. naglalaro ng walang items. walang alam na items. hindi alam ang denies. soooo noob! harhar! :))

ngayon, the guys have accepted us as dota players. nauuso na ang mixed girls and boys pag nagdodota ngayon. adik na kame sa moneyshots and denies, and we know all about item builds. but i'm way beyond what i'm trying to say. baka mapa-lecture pa ako tungkol sa dota.haha.

anyway.all of us DotA amigas.well, we're high school batchmates. we know each other, basically but we came from different barkadas. it was DotA that brought us together. lalu na ngayong college. the DotA-amigas eLBi chapter has evolved. dati, dota lang. ngayon, it's an awesome friendship. siguro kasi palagi na kami ang magkakasama. pero ngayon, eto na siguro ang barkada ko.

when we have problems, we tell the amigas. we laugh and eat and talk with amigas. grabe. imagine. dahil lang sa DotA kaya kami naging close. at hindi basta bastang close. kakaiba eh. :) ang saya noh. haha.

just a simple game and a span of a few months and.. POOF! (it became coco crunch!haha.)

POOF! the greatest, funniest and craziest set of friends one could have. :D

super duper delayed blog entry.

super duper delayed blog entry. yes. it's super delayed because i should have written this a week ago. why? because this entry is about august 25. not 2007, but 2006. a year ago. 4th year high school.

the event that well.. literally changed eight lives. since then, we knew we'd be different. and yes, we were. hell yeah. it can't be described really, because it's weird. a lot of things have happened. we've fallen apart a lot of times, we hated each other at some point, we lied. but somehow, the good stuff still weighed more than all the bad stuff.

the surprise parties we threw for each other. the many bonding,crying,laughing sessions we had. simpleng tambay. simpleng kakain. i remember that once, we acted as if we couldn't live without the rest.

eight girls. eight different stories. one group. asan na yung group ngayon? parang hiwa-hiwalay but still intact. weird noh? college na, iba't ibang campuses. kami na nasa UPLB, minsan na lang din magkita. pero that bond that was created on the night of august 25 never really disappeared. it was really one of a kind. it was a bond created because of too much hatred and depression. depression was what brought us together. and ewan, that bond was really strong.

that's why we still celebrated our anniversary. too bad we weren't complete. but the point is, all of us held on to it. all of us held on to our bond.

MS. i really love you girls, and i really miss those times. :(

uhm.

okay.

fuck.ang ayoko sa lahat pinaplastik ako.DIRETSUHIN NIYO NA KO. hehe.. why don't we go back to the way things were last year? wh don't we return to the saga of sitting on the stairsof Vega, cryin' our hearts out habang naglalabasan ng sama ng loob.

what changed? okay. fine. i changed. but you also changed. all of you. all of US. i don't know what i think.

but i don't like what's happening now.you know what i did? i just got home. 10pm.more or less. why? i went to ground zero and i drank beer. for you. for you, and also you. and you too. i drank because i'm not happy. and then our batchmates? naabutan nila akong nakalupaypay sa area51.

nahirapan daw sila gisingin ako.

no regrets. for a while, nakalimut ako. for a while, i forgot about my problems that i couldn't share..even to you and you and you. why? because you wouldn't talk to me. i mean, okay, there's that usual "hi" but other than that? i feel neglected. fuck.

ikaw, di ko na alam. sinusungitan mo na ko. ewan ko kung bakit. di ka ganyan dati, and you're one of my closest friends. i never thought magiging ganito tayo.ewan. siguro, ako na rin yung mali. nag-assume ako. nag-assume ako na pag may problem tayo, prankahan agad. ewan. i changed, you changed. may nadagdag, tapos may nabawas. tapos ganito na.

ikaw naman. minsan magkaaway, minsan hindi. nu ba yiung tawag satin? frenemies? hehe. laging nagkakaroon ng labuan, ng away, pero sa dulo, tayo ang may alam ng deepest darkest secrets ng bawat isa. eto, alam mo sa time na ito, isa ka sa mga pinaka-naapreciate ko. ewan ko kung pinaplastik mo ko.. ewan ko lang. feel ko naman hinde. tama ba ko? mali ba ko? sabihin mo naman.. para hindi ako nagmumukhang tanga.. ang sakin lang, eto. away-bati tayo. pero ewan. some things change, some things never change. pero ang alam ko, isa ka sa mga pinaka-kaclose ko, at ayokong mawala ka.

okay. you next.. damn, i appreciate you so much. kahit kelan, hindi ka approve sa mga bisyo ko pero friends parin tayo. pinrove mo yung isa kong motto na "hindi ibig sabihin na kaibigan mo ang isang tao, dapat approve ka na sa lahat ng ginagawa niya." ngayon, sa times na ito, naaapreciate din kita ng sobra. isa siguro sa mga reasons ay kasi, hindi ka nakukulong sa iisang opinyon. you're willing to look both ways. tinitingnan mo yung both sides nung argument bago mag-judge and i love you for that. at alam kong pranka ka. somehow, lagi ko iniisip na parati kang andyan. na hindi mo ko iiwan. sana tama ako..

o, ikaw naman.hehe. last year? uhm, mejo nagalit ka sakin. di ko alam kung bakit, ayoko na alamin, at di ko na balak alamin. basta ang alam ko frends tayo na parating nagkakaasaran. nag-agree tayo dun dati: na natural lang na magkaasaran ang magkakaibigan. pero i've always known you to be pranka. ewan. baka nga paranoid lang ako nowadays? but i know something's up.

you next?hehe.siguro, pinakareligious ka sa mga friends ko.at pinakasweet.sure, minsan nakakainis pag masyado kang parang bata, but you know, it's part of your charm. hehe. one thing i like so much about you. alam mo yung bonus dati sa isang exam? yung tanung na "where would you ather be at this very moment?" ang sagot mo ay "Neverland". wow.hehe.. :) isa ka rin sa mga pinakaunderstanding people.inaamin ko nainis ako sayo minsan. alam mo n yun diba? kahapon ba yun nung may shinare ako sayo na clue tungkol sa problem ko at sabi mo "hayaan mo na sila." ewan. super naapreciate kita dun. suri kung di mo gets kkung bakit. hehe. basta yun.

i'm not angry at anyone but myself.haha.pagtawanan nyo na kung gusto nyo..ewn. ang gulo tol.di ko na alam.

you know me. all of you. i was never good at making decisions. i was never good at choosing. i always wind up in trouble, in tears, or with a beer. FUCK.

girls, i love you so much.. i hope you know that.. i dont wanna lose you. or them.
they're also my friends.

hey... love you people.

MOVE ON

intrams next week.scimath ended today.

what a sembreak.no.it's not because of the fucking scimath fair or the intrams.naah.it's because of well.. what's happening to me.to him.to her.to her.to them.to us.to him again.to everyone.

Story 1
she likes him a lot.they were actually sorta like a couple two years ago. but she got bored with him. and dumped him. now he's moved on and very happy with his new girl. and now, she wants to get back together with him. in fact, here's the truth: she wants to break them up. and if she does succeed.. know what will happen? someone will get hurt. now, she's our friend. but i don't support her decision in wanting to break them up. i don't want to see anybody get hurt.

Story 2
she wants to get back together with this guy. this guy and me..we're very close.always texting and talking, and you get the idea, right? we're not sure if he still has feelings for her. but she.. is one of my best friends. and you see the dilemma here right? i don't wanna ruin a friendship.

if they get back together, i'll get hurt but nobody has to know. if they don't get back together, she'll get hurt.. and everyone will know. and some of my friends think it's possible that we might have a "something" sooner or later. and well.. sometimes i wish there wouldn't. less conflict. less problems.


the girl in story 1 is.. selfish. i don't take that against her. i'm selfish too. we're all selfish. come on.. we all want everything going for us the way we want it. raaaayt?

irish told me i'm not selfish. she said she doesn't see anything selfish about me. but oh yes, i am. why? coz i want him. but at the same time, i wish they'd just get back together so everybody happy.

except me. but who cares?

"you know what people's problems are?" aryan said. "they care too much."

HELP me, ANYONE?

whatta night

i still think it's my fault. kasi ako ang nagyaya. how was i to know it was going to end in the way it did? i had no idea. still, i don't regret the things that happened last night-Friday.

MS. that's what we call our group. it stands for two different things that are connected to each other. we decided to go out last night. plan was to eat at LB Square.. and maybe drink a little. bonding.we like to do that, you know? just sit around and talk.

well, when we arrived at the Square, some of our guy friends decided to join us. so we drank, and ate sisig. yumm. and then.. two MS girls had to go home.. it was 8.30 by that time. then more guy friends arrived. i went to get some money. when i arrived back at the Square, only five guys were there. they bought me a 500ml bottle of Red Horse and i finished it. the hell.. anyway. i have a strong tolerance for alcohol. i stayed with them until about 9pm.. then Henry went to get me. the other MS people were at Area51 because one of the girls got drunk and was vomiting. i went with Henry to Area51 and helped the girl, Nyka, recover. She couldn't stand up but she was still concious. Aryan was also a bit drunk but she was feeling better. our batchmates who were there helped Nyka feel better. we bought her candy, water, and even coffee.

then the parents started calling. Lolo texted me. Aryan's mother was calling my cellphone and i was cancelling all the calls. boyong's father started calling. Nyka's mother started texting. so Ihsa used Area's phone to call Nkya's mother. ihsa told her mother that Nyka wasn't feeling good and will spend the night at my house. Aryan will also spend the night in my house because her parents musn't see her.. and smell her.

we began making up a story. in other words, nag-iisip ng pandahilan. this is what we came up with: someone's birthday..he treated us dinner, then Nyka had stomach cramps. Area51 was slowly emptying as we were doing this.

Jubes called his mother to come over. his mom is SO nice. she told us that what we did was wrong. but she wasn't going to tell on us. she also told me we all smelled like alcohol. then she drove me, aryan and nyka to my house. sam, jubes and kitt also came with us.

we reached the house 10pm. we told the birthday story.. and Jubes' mom just nodded. and lola didn't notice the smell of alcohol in the house. whew! buti na lang.

all of us MS girls have problems..some of us don't want to come home..and to think that "home" is supposed to be a place of comfort. but for some of us, that so called "home" could be a living hell.

i'm sure that next week, some things will change.all of us involved now has a special bond.. and a secret. a special secret known only by us.

after all, if everyone knew about it, it wouldn't be so special anymore.. right?

hidden window

whatever.our assignment for literature class was to divide a bond paper into four squares.the squares stand for four different windows:
1. OPEN window - know to you; and known to others
2. BLIND window - known to others; unknown to you
3. HIDDEN window - known to you; unknown to others
4. CLOSED window - unknown to you; unknown to others

i planned on not passing, but i ended up doing it anyway.i guess, because i saw everyone doing theirs.i only filled up the OPEN window and let my friends fill in the BLIND window.for the HIDDEN window, i wrote:

"yoko po.may mga bagay kasi na hindi na kelangan malaman ng mga tao tungkol sakin.akala nila kilala na nila ako pero hindi pa talaga.pero okei na sakin yung ganito.ayoko ng malaman nila, ayoko ng magbago ang tingin nila sakin."

i just hope the teacher respects my decision not to write in that window..and then..some students shared in front of the class..
and then, one of my closest friends did too.and i knew..i knew..na ako ang pinapatamaan niya.

eugs: yung ineexpect mo pag pasok mo ganun parin, pero hindi pala. tapos parang ikaw na lang yung tanga na nagho-hold on dun sa friendship niyo..

ako din naman eh..4th yr didn't turn out the way i expected it to be..i thought, having her as a classmate again after 2 years..wow.yay.i'm with one of my closest friends again!woo.i thought it was easy to balance the barkada and her.but i guess i thought wrong.i should have known it was all too good to be easy.i didn't mean to hurt her--if i did.and i think i did. but i want her to know that i'm hurt also..because she never seems to open up anymore..nakakapanghinayang lang naman. i'll talk to her. but not now. give her time to think, to cool off, time to adjust. i don't want to lose our friendship..

we may not be as close now as we were during our freshie year, but. yung mga pinagdaanan namin, yung mga napag-usapan namin, iba yun eh. she's definitely one of those friends na hindi ko malilimutan..

eugs, ako din. iba yung nangyari sa inexpect ko.. at vinavalue ko din naman friendship natin.sana alam mo yun bes. =D

people think i'm so strong

i can't believe i went straight home. i just needed some time alone from school and the things happening there. of the things happening to me. but actually, everyone in my batch may know who i am, may have laughed with me, or talked to me, but they don't really know who i am. people who read my blog may know me more than some of my batchmates will ever do.

some friends and i were playing a game of truth or truth yesterday using c2 bottles, since we had a 2 1/2 hour break. and a conversation suddenly started between us.

zeus: si reg? hindi ko pa nakikitang seryoso.
irish: kasi iba yung reg na nakikita niyo sa school.iba yan sa bahay.
ME: oo..konti lang ang may kilala talaga sa akin.
joepau: kilala ka naman naming lahat ah?
ME: ha?hinde. akala niyo lang. pero ang dami niyo pang di alam tungkol sakin.

funny. i'd rather have it that way. that they know me as someone who's always happy and who always makes people laugh. yet i hate it when they think i'm not serious and i don't think about.. stuff. coz i do. and i may know more than some of them. because i've experienced a lot of things that not everyone has.

i have always been able to control my feelings in school. yet today, i was ready to break down. i'm such a stupid girl. i was ready to break down, but not in school. so i went home. saang story ba yun? yung may line na "so i went home and cried." me? i went home.

but i didn't cry.

omg.remember my post dati sa sugarriot? when i laugh, i can't stop. when i cry, i can't stop. bakit ngayon--nahihirapan narin ako umiyak?

"naulan ng mga lab layp"

this day has been too dramatic.

first i shared my "hard candy" story to ihsa and eugenia.sandra and irish will know about it tomorrow.hard candy daw sabi ni ihsa dahil pwede siyang ipadala sa candy magazine.but that story, my hard candy story was and still is something that i can't easily share to just anyone.it's something so.. different.

until today, only aryan knew about my hard candy story and that's because something happened to make me tell her.and i trust her so much too.then i told myself, "i'll tell this to the barkada one time.. maybe when they have boyfriends na." but that changed after i told ihsa and eugs.maybe i should tell the barkada because they're my friends..

i thought this could be a secret that only i will know.i guess i was wrong.maybe i told them the story because i had already let go..i want to forget it already.but it felt so hard telling them.but after i told them i felt great.. i'm glad i let them know.

and then i got to talk to some of my classmates last year and they all seem to have problems..more or less about their love lives..

quoted by ihsa kanina: "bakit ba naulan ng mga lalake ngaun?" LOLZ.

bakit nagkasabay sabay ang mga pag-unlad/pag-fade ng mga love life ng mga tao?is it because we're older?seniors na?did that have something to do with it?DAMN.we're growing up.

sense of humor

another ARYAN-REG conversation is stuck in my mind right now.anyone who knows us in real life knows that our conversations really are..uhm..weird.and funny.in different ways.today we talked about the different types of SOH(sense of humor).

TYPE 1 - Irish and Me
ARYAN said irish and i share the same kind of SOH.we can say some uh..really unpredictable stuff.and when we ride on each other's jokes and just like to laugh a lot.
example:whenever we ride on an elevator, irish makes the puking sound.which,coming from her,sounds totally hilarious.
example:i currently have a terrible cough.kanina,i couldn't stop coughing so i turned away from irish and the others and coughed away.when i finally stopped, i said "ay, dugo.may tb na ku!" those who heard it laughed and laughed.we're weird that way.
example:we also like making up stories.algebra exam today.checking time,we were defending our answers and making up solutions that absolutely did not consist of algebraic equations.
our only difference is..uhm..i can also ride on green jokes. >.<

TYPE 2 - ARYAN
aryan is..how should i say this?sobrang pilosopo!but that what makes her funny.she also says stuff that she hears wrong.usually,when she makes a comment about something,irish and i laugh and make up jokes about it.
example:our Reading Comprehension teacher kept on insisting today that the answer was "partly true" when in fact, most of us had answered "completely true".the other two choices were "completely false" and "partly false". when ma'am said the answer was "partly true", aryan suddenly blurted out "e di partly false din un?"
example: cayle was yelling "ang sweet!" over and over again.me, being the curious type said "cnu?" and it turned out aryan heard it wrong.she blurted out, "anu?pusit?"

TYPE 3 - SANDRA
sandra is the corniest girl in the world!but we love her for it.it's part of her so-called charm. we always tease her with stuff like "sandra!joke naman dyan!" coz usually when she tells a joke, it's so CORNY that no one laughs. and then we all suddenly laugh out very loud para mainis si sandra. whenever we're bored, we always call on her to tell a corny joke which is really..uhm..corny.as in not funny but we still give our all in laughing.
example: geez!to view the corniest ever jokes, the so-called "Nevermore" jokes, please [click.]

TYPE 4 - dumb?not really!just kidding!
aaah.ito..konting tao lang ang binabagayan nito.all of us tend to do this once in a while.but some of my classmates are professionals. you never know if they're just pretending to be dumb or they're really dumb.ahaha.lolz.no examples for this.you all know what it's like.

TYPE 5 - vulgarity
they say stuff without meaning to.lolz.
example:john2x has the weirdest expressions.and sometimes, buhol-buhol ang words niya so we always tease him "tagay pa!" his usual expressions are the curse words but sometimes he can come up with some really weird ones. this afternoon, we were all quiet.the algebra exam was crap!turns out he was really frustrated and suddenly yelled out "aha!huli ka hayop!" also this morning, he yelled out, "aah!tinamaan ng kulog!"
example:gale is sobrang pranka and cute.sometimes, kung anu-anu nlng lumalabas sa isip nyan!one time during geometry period, she turned to me and said "boboink..boink.." and her laugh is also really uhm.. nakakadala!

TYPE 6 - my twin
my twin is so darn funny in a weird way.
example:aryan and i just arrived in school.she saw us and suddenly..suddenly..she hops towards us, swinging her hands and singing "tralalalala"

haha.cge.e2 muna.e2 lng napasok sa utak ku eh.punta kau sa blog ni aryan.she's also gonna write about this.i think.haha.you?what type is your sense of humor?tag me and let me know!ahaha.

lalalalala-lalaluv makes the world go round..
luv reg

crying and laughing

well.year ender's over!it was really fun and even though i couldn't swim because i had my period (which sucked) i still enjoyed.in fact, i was one of the few who didn't sleep at all.we stayed up and chatted about any topic tht popped in our heads.

yes, i enjoyed.i came to the party to forget about everything.still, about one in the morning, i received a text message.and i cried.and cried.as much as i did when i ran away.and i thought i had no more tears left.god, i couldn't stop myself!i am so pathetic. and the weird thing was, i cried after i drank beer.i thought beer was supposed to help you forget problems, not make you cry like a water faucet.and to think i was one of those who drank the most.someone even had to stop me from opening another one.

but basically i enjoyed.really.no regrets.i also won Molave Hot Babe of the Year.lol.and the colored games was also cute. and what we chatted about the whole night up to morning was really.. unique.lol

i might not be able to update until may.i'm going back to manila tomorrow.i also want to.i need to escape, to get out of this house and my grandparents.i'm returning here on may 2, most probably..but please continue visiting and leaving your tags!

oh.and my birthday's on may 1 already..oh no.i'm gonna be 15.and on june,i'll be a 4th year student.

running from everything

i ran away.well..i tried.i went to aryan's house and BURST!i--i'm not sure..i cried and cried and cursed and cried some more.i just needed to be somewhere else and not my grandrents' house.oh get this.after i ran away, he ran away.and he axidentally left his cellphone here.so.. no means of contacting him.. you know what?

anyway, yeah, i'm back at home.and gee, the atmosphere is boiling hot.and my lolo's sister locked her keys inside her room.it would have been funny but i won't dare laugh.they're pretty steamed at me.and him.and they're still suspecting me of helping him out.thing is, i don't really care anymore.i just want to get the hell out of this fucking house!damn.

they think they're so awesome and right about eveyrthing.they don't want to admit that they were wrong.oh, yeah.. if only they knew how they've got it all wrong.how they got me wrong..oh boy..this is gonna be some show.

somebody film it, quick!

one day till the end

one more day until it ends..until school ends, i mean..one more day and then we're.. free?not entirely..we still have our speech choir presentation(yea, the controversial one), our career fair and our peter pan presentation(it should be fun).. then again, there's the year-ender.. it was originally supposed to be this Friday, but the venue's available sa April 5 pa..and guess what.i won't be able to attend!graar. kasi naman, i thought it was this friday na, so i postponed my going back to manila..huling tawad na ung april 5 ako uuwi.shitness.

but who cares..right?i know she won't change the date and place just so i can attend.anyway,i know she doesn't like me a whole lot and it wouldn't hurt her if i won't be able to attend.anyway, aryan and i were talking about how we really love to tick her off. my classmate made a joke that if i won't attend, someone else won't attend, and if that someone won't attend, all the guys won't attend too. *guffaws* i hope that ticked her off and ruined her day, because it made mine. haha. her loss. lol but i really really would like to attend. i just wished she wasn't that biased.

oh, and here's the worst part, no one else believes she's biased.and bossy.and.. ******..

luv reg

giving up slowly

i'm going to take away all the hatred from me..i'm really really trying..i know life's not perfect..i know we learn things the hard way..and that we always go through tough times.i also know that all of us have flaws..coz nobody's perfect..we just have to accept people for who they are..it's hard, yeah, but we have to try.

and right now.. i'm trying.i'm really really trying.i'm trying to keep my mind clear from any bad thought about someone.especially if he or she is my friend.

i don't want to lose her as a friend.coz i really like her.we've gone through so much together and we have a lot of memories.no matter how much we seem to be irritated at each other at times, i know she's going to be there when i need her.she doesn't know how much she's hurt me..by taking some of my things.. but she's made me laugh more than she's hurt me.

luv reg