college kid

yesterday was officially the start of my college life.
and.. well.being in college is different when you just graduated from UPRHS. [University of the Philippines Rural High School.]

one, because people expect more from you. two, because most of your batchmates are also in UPLB you won't have a hard time making friends. three, because you already know the campus. and four, because most college students don't like Ruralites [that's what we call students from UPRHS].

ARYAN said last week: never ko inakalang ikakahiya ko ang pagiging Ruralite ko.

i'm proud to be a Ruralite. but i hate it that the word "Ruralite" automatically brands us as notorious, over-confident and loud freaks.

yesterday during our college orientation[i'm in DevComm btw.], my seatmate asked me what high school i graduated from. i answered with "sa Rural po." and she said "ay ang yabang"

grawr.

ooh.and it is said that Ruralites have some kind of sickness wherein we don't attend block meetings.well.we'll prove that wrong.xD

sem break

sem break.the almost one month sem break.

sem break in rural is different.it's just called sem break..but we don't actually have a real break.it's always practice for intrams.. and now, physics project.ugh.

anyway, here's what got me to blog again: i might be able to spend the whole of sem break here!yay!that's an awesome opportunity to bond with my batchmates since we are..about to graduate.waah. the past sem breaks, i spent about 2 weeks in manila, since i do have to spend time with my family. :)

anyway, chiara is coming over this saturday..oh no.not that i hate her..i don't. well, not really.in fact, we're sort of learning to get along.. i mean, sometimes we're okay, most of the time we're at each other's throats. maybe because we're so alike. well, that's what people say.

they say that we're both outspoken, very stubborn and very naughty. they say that you hate someone of you're like that someone. really? maybe.. maybe not. i don't really know.

mumsy said to "enjoy the opportunity to bond as sisters". excuuuuse me. what opportunity?it's not like i'm always home. i'm rarely home. i leave in the morning, i come back at night. why? i just don't wanna be here anymore. i hate this house. i hate most of the people living here. and i can't get over the fact that lola said "uuwi na si chiara sa sabado."

NO.no freaking way. uuwi? yeah right. our home.. is in manila. ayt?

not here. not in this big ol' house with granparents who stink and people who take advantage of you.

i'd rather be anywhere than here.

La Vie Boheme!

Have you watched RENT? It’s a Broadway musical that has a movie version. Anyway, that’s what our section put on for our musical. The other sections did The Wizard of Oz and Grease.

Aside from our everyday, late night practices, we had THE practice. The one that lasted the whole weekend because the presentation was this Monday.

FRIDAY
8 people slept over at my house. 6 of the 8 major characters, the technician, and a friend from the Grease section. It was fun. We didn’t really practice, sort of just bonded. Around 11pm, we went out and bought some snacks. Around 2am, some went out to buy juice and some GSM blue (gin). Then we drank. (you prolly already know I’ve got a high tolerance). It was Trish’s first time to drink outside her house. She got a lil drunk—she kept laughing and banging her head on the bunk beds. Henry got a bit high and was dancing to “Out Tonight” from the Rent Soundtrack. And he was vomiting words. Words you don’t hear everyday. Nope, not curse words—we hear THOSE everyday.and it was just so.. fun. So we slept at around 5:49am. We made arrangements to wake up at 6am to buy pandesal. There were five of us in one bed.

SATURDAY:
When I woke up, there were only two of us in the bed and Henry and Trisha were holding pandesals in front of our faces.
Henry: wow! Yung mga hindi pa lasing at chaperones” and natulog ng 1 hour! Hyper pa kasi kami ni trisha!
Reg: hindi niyo kami ginising!
Trisha: ginising naming kayo!
Henry: lahat kau mukhang isda! Si ickz mukhang suso, si Reg mukhang sapsap at si sam mukhang tilapia!

Reg: eh?wait, asan si ickz?
Ickz: andito.. hinulog mo ako sa kama eh.
Henry: ako nga muntik ko ng masubo paa ni Reg! at pano ako nagicing? Ganito. Biglang may paa na bumagsak sa dibdib ko at napaubo ako. Ang likot ni Reg!

The six of us went to Vega to pick up some of our other classmates. Kate and pat were left behind. We went o to Vega with sleepy looks, and our classmates there laughed when they saw us. Mga “mukhang bangag” daw.

Not all of our classmates showed up.. there’s still those who don’t join group activities..people who keep to themselves. So we practiced the whole day. We went to Vega for lunch and dinner. Then the boys plus kate and me donated money to buy more gin. We planned to drink it as a celebration for when the Rent practice is finally over!


SATURDAY NIGHT:
About 23 of us.

We got the spooks. No doubt, our house is haunted. We’ve always known that..this is a pretty old house anyway.

The first scare of the night:
Sam and Kiel got water. I was with them and they asked me to close the kitchen door because they were spooked out.

The second scare:
Henry entered the hall shivering and crying. He had seen a silhouette floating outside the kitchen window. The kitchen!!!

The third scare:
Popet asked someone to accompany him while taking a bath because joepau had heard three shrieks coming from the bathroom.

The fourth scare:
Sandra was pushed down the stairs by someone and her toe bled.

The fifth scare:
Kate, Kiel, Sam and I went ghost hunting. We all saw something in our van and we ran up the stairs to our front door. We were all panicking and couldn’t open the door because all our hands were there. When we reached the hall, we were sweating.

At around 12am, they watched horror movies. While Kate, sam, ickz and I (who only got an hour of sleep on Friday) slept for about 2 hours. We were each sprawled on four monoblock chairs placed side by side. We were beside the movie people and they said we looked creepy because we were all stiff and covered in white blankets.

Para daw kaming nasa morgue.

Then we practiced some more and around 3am, we brought out the drinks. Gin mixed with mango, with pineapple and with pomelo. Yum! Of course, not everybody drank. Joepau couldn’t stand still and henry was laughing at him. Henry, this time, was as annoying as hell. J kate and I divided them into two groups. Henry in one, with the people who drank only a little, and two who din’t drink any at all, and joepau in the other room with the rest.

The others slept at about 3am, but us in charge of the drinking only lay down at 4am.

SUNDAY:
We planned to wake up at 6 but woke up at 8 instead. Actually, clacla said that the last ones to wake up were kate,sam and i—the “chaperones” and the others were too shy to wake us up, since we WERE the ones who had calmed them down.

When we woke up, our set was there and we planned to paint it that day. We went to vega and ate breakfast. When I got back, cla, lara and Janine were finished painting the base paint. They left. That afternoon, henry and sam came over and we painted the set..1 door, 2 windows and 1 thing. Around 7pm, Bianca came and she bought us clubhouse sandwiches. Sarap!we even finger painted one wall of the set.. it looked like a graffiti wall with the words “Rent!” “Smoke Pot!” “Benny Sucks!” “Fight Aids!” it was a work of art.

They left the house 9.30pm.

MONDAY:
RENT! We were the second to perform and even though we had a few bloopers, the audience said it was a great performance..Especially La Vie Boheme which is about the Bohemian Life. When all the presentations were finished, we fixed up the gym and you could hear shouts of “practice daw uli!” “overnight uli!”

TUESDAY:
After classes, we felt weird. Now that the musical was over, we had nothing to do—except study for the quarterly exams which is today until Friday. Ugh. To make it short, we all missed RENT.

Try watching it. RENT by Jonathan Larson. Great story, great songs.

hidden window

whatever.our assignment for literature class was to divide a bond paper into four squares.the squares stand for four different windows:
1. OPEN window - know to you; and known to others
2. BLIND window - known to others; unknown to you
3. HIDDEN window - known to you; unknown to others
4. CLOSED window - unknown to you; unknown to others

i planned on not passing, but i ended up doing it anyway.i guess, because i saw everyone doing theirs.i only filled up the OPEN window and let my friends fill in the BLIND window.for the HIDDEN window, i wrote:

"yoko po.may mga bagay kasi na hindi na kelangan malaman ng mga tao tungkol sakin.akala nila kilala na nila ako pero hindi pa talaga.pero okei na sakin yung ganito.ayoko ng malaman nila, ayoko ng magbago ang tingin nila sakin."

i just hope the teacher respects my decision not to write in that window..and then..some students shared in front of the class..
and then, one of my closest friends did too.and i knew..i knew..na ako ang pinapatamaan niya.

eugs: yung ineexpect mo pag pasok mo ganun parin, pero hindi pala. tapos parang ikaw na lang yung tanga na nagho-hold on dun sa friendship niyo..

ako din naman eh..4th yr didn't turn out the way i expected it to be..i thought, having her as a classmate again after 2 years..wow.yay.i'm with one of my closest friends again!woo.i thought it was easy to balance the barkada and her.but i guess i thought wrong.i should have known it was all too good to be easy.i didn't mean to hurt her--if i did.and i think i did. but i want her to know that i'm hurt also..because she never seems to open up anymore..nakakapanghinayang lang naman. i'll talk to her. but not now. give her time to think, to cool off, time to adjust. i don't want to lose our friendship..

we may not be as close now as we were during our freshie year, but. yung mga pinagdaanan namin, yung mga napag-usapan namin, iba yun eh. she's definitely one of those friends na hindi ko malilimutan..

eugs, ako din. iba yung nangyari sa inexpect ko.. at vinavalue ko din naman friendship natin.sana alam mo yun bes. =D

people think i'm so strong

i can't believe i went straight home. i just needed some time alone from school and the things happening there. of the things happening to me. but actually, everyone in my batch may know who i am, may have laughed with me, or talked to me, but they don't really know who i am. people who read my blog may know me more than some of my batchmates will ever do.

some friends and i were playing a game of truth or truth yesterday using c2 bottles, since we had a 2 1/2 hour break. and a conversation suddenly started between us.

zeus: si reg? hindi ko pa nakikitang seryoso.
irish: kasi iba yung reg na nakikita niyo sa school.iba yan sa bahay.
ME: oo..konti lang ang may kilala talaga sa akin.
joepau: kilala ka naman naming lahat ah?
ME: ha?hinde. akala niyo lang. pero ang dami niyo pang di alam tungkol sakin.

funny. i'd rather have it that way. that they know me as someone who's always happy and who always makes people laugh. yet i hate it when they think i'm not serious and i don't think about.. stuff. coz i do. and i may know more than some of them. because i've experienced a lot of things that not everyone has.

i have always been able to control my feelings in school. yet today, i was ready to break down. i'm such a stupid girl. i was ready to break down, but not in school. so i went home. saang story ba yun? yung may line na "so i went home and cried." me? i went home.

but i didn't cry.

omg.remember my post dati sa sugarriot? when i laugh, i can't stop. when i cry, i can't stop. bakit ngayon--nahihirapan narin ako umiyak?

gambling

italy won.france lost.

i got 50 pesos from ian and 25 pesos from icks.

aaah.gambling.more commonly known as pakikipagpustahan.commonly done in school.
advantages?
well.it helps us improve our grades. "pataasan!mas mababa manlilibre!"
or not. "pababaan!yung mas mababa may bente!"

i won't deny that gambling is wrong.it's also prohibited in our school and in any other school, i'm sure. but why do we keep doing it? maybe because we know it's wrong. mas may thrill daw pag ginagawa mo yung mali tapos di ka nahuhuli.

example.most parents don't allow their kids to drink alcoholic beverages. so naturally, those kids are really exhilarated when they drink alcohol without being caught. "ui nakainom ako!astig!no sweat nga eh!" unfortunately, i don't find that much thrill in drinking alcohol because my dad lets me. (oo.may future daw ako as tanggero.joke!)

sometimes i think the thrill is the reason why kids shoplift, or even steal. yun bang sa initiation?pag di sila nahuli iisipin nila ang galing galing nila. nakatatak na daw kasi sa generation ngayon na bad = cool.

i admit i curse.A LOT.i know it's wrong.so why don't i stop?
people in school curse.they also gamble.and everyone lies at least once in a while.and we all know it's wrong.so why don't we stop?

i dunno.
go figure.

PLUGGERS: FIFI CARS ARYAN

bullying

let's talk about bullying, okay?
i've been branded as a bully since my sophomore year.i bully the lowerclassmen whom i do not like.however,now i'm in my senior year and frankly, the freshmen are nothing to me.

until today.

FUCK THEM.
we were waiting for the jeep.when it came, the freshmen went ahead of us. uhm..hello?nung 1st year po kami kahit cnung upperclassmen pinapauna namin? at ako ung last na sumakay.ang luwag dun sa isnag side!3 lang nakaupo pero lahat nakabukaka. walang umusod, putakte!at ako, being maangas, said "PWEDE UMUSOD KAYO?" at umusod naman ng kakapiranggot. feel ko kalahati lang ng kalahati ng pwet ko ang nakaupo.

so nagparinig na lang kami ng friends ko.

"ang ganda ng bubong ng jeep noh?" (roll eyes)

ARYAN: reg, nakakaupo ka?
ME: OO.
ARYAN: masikip?
ME: hinde.ang definition ko ng maluwag ay ung nakakahiga na ako.

ARYAN:reg, may tanong ako.di naman maxadong bulgar.
ME:ano?
ARYAN:pag bagong tule(circumcised) ba kelangan laging nakabukaka?
ME: OO.
ARYAN and ME: KAYA PALA.

and lots of other damn stuff.i wanted to scream dun sa isa na kapitbahay namin.. "PATI PALA BADING TINUTULIAN?"

yesterday, soccer. they were criticizing my batchmates. uhm.hello?
FRESHMEN YEAR: we beat the juniors and wound up 2nd place in soccer overall.boys and girls. SOPHOMORE YEAR: we beat the seniors and wound up 2nd place. boys and girls.
JUNIOR YEAR:we beat the freshmen with 14 goals.haha. and we wound up 2nd place sa girls and 1st place sa boys.

not to mention we were 2nd place sa cheering nung 2nd year and 1st place last year.

so bago sila mangaway, isipin muna nila kung cnu ung kinakalaban nila.
pwede lang sila manglait ng soccer skills ng batchmates ko kapag naka 3 goals sila sa Brazil.

RESPETO NAMAN DIYAN.

damn

[off topic]
pahabol: june2007.
i can't believe i hated my 4th yr section so much.now i love it to death. :)
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damn.wala akong maisulat.nothing much going out.first week of being a senior has ended.first ever CAT is over.and wearing that freaking boknay will have to be done every week.argh.with a minumum number of 30 hair pins.gah!can you believe it?

i hate my section.well,not the people.i hate the mix.at least i'm with irish, sandra and eugs but it still isn't the same.

damn.

i hate how this is.

and.

I MISS HOW IT ALL WAS.

last year.section Molave..my favorite section.the people there were..uhm.well.we were like one big barkada.

half-junior and half-senior

in about a month's time, i'll be a 4th year high school student.it all seems very strange.i mean,when i'll be filling out forms a month from now, the words "fourth year high school student" and the number 15 will be common.they make me seem old.

yesterday was the registration of the incoming freshies this year.it surprised me that some of them were so much smaller than me. *ay oo.alam kong hindi ako sobrang tangkad.wag niyo ng idiin, please lang!lol* and thoughts were running through my mind. stuff like "huwaw.tumangkad na rin pala ako since then!" *actually average lng naman ang height ko eh..whe..* hinde..seryoso.. stuff like "anu kayang iniisip nila pag dumadaan kami?" may respect ba? it is said that older people should be respected. one of the things i learned in UPRHS because of the famous "bullying". and yes, i was actually called a bully back in my sophomore year.oh, and also this year. anyway. anu kayang iniisip nila pag nadaan kami? o nakikita kami? natatakot na ba sila? iniisip ba nila kung magiging friends nila kami or isa sila sa mga malas na mabubully?

e2 naman iniisip ko ngaun.. "meron ba akong ibubully this year?" teka.. may word ba ibubully?or mas tama bang gamitin ang "bubulihin?" weird.

xenxa na.. hehe.. mejo high ako ngaun eh. *aah..not pertaining to height!*

one day till the end

one more day until it ends..until school ends, i mean..one more day and then we're.. free?not entirely..we still have our speech choir presentation(yea, the controversial one), our career fair and our peter pan presentation(it should be fun).. then again, there's the year-ender.. it was originally supposed to be this Friday, but the venue's available sa April 5 pa..and guess what.i won't be able to attend!graar. kasi naman, i thought it was this friday na, so i postponed my going back to manila..huling tawad na ung april 5 ako uuwi.shitness.

but who cares..right?i know she won't change the date and place just so i can attend.anyway,i know she doesn't like me a whole lot and it wouldn't hurt her if i won't be able to attend.anyway, aryan and i were talking about how we really love to tick her off. my classmate made a joke that if i won't attend, someone else won't attend, and if that someone won't attend, all the guys won't attend too. *guffaws* i hope that ticked her off and ruined her day, because it made mine. haha. her loss. lol but i really really would like to attend. i just wished she wasn't that biased.

oh, and here's the worst part, no one else believes she's biased.and bossy.and.. ******..

luv reg

giving up slowly

i'm going to take away all the hatred from me..i'm really really trying..i know life's not perfect..i know we learn things the hard way..and that we always go through tough times.i also know that all of us have flaws..coz nobody's perfect..we just have to accept people for who they are..it's hard, yeah, but we have to try.

and right now.. i'm trying.i'm really really trying.i'm trying to keep my mind clear from any bad thought about someone.especially if he or she is my friend.

i don't want to lose her as a friend.coz i really like her.we've gone through so much together and we have a lot of memories.no matter how much we seem to be irritated at each other at times, i know she's going to be there when i need her.she doesn't know how much she's hurt me..by taking some of my things.. but she's made me laugh more than she's hurt me.

luv reg

me alone

my sister went home to antipolo, leaving me behind.not that i'm making a big thing about it, but i really really wanted to go.and i didn't go because of the damn speech choir.hey..okay, i'm complaining.but i guess it won't do much, coz the speech choir is our quarterly exam in literature.i'd rather do it than take a written periodical. and everyone knows that ma'am gaffud's exams are tough. i spent the day at my cousins' house, which used to be our house.but that's a long story.anyway,we watched TV and just chatted.we like to do that.and my older cousin put some nailpolish on my feet.lol ^_^

about the speech choir.. i like the others' ideas better. and i really wanted to tell her that.but would she listen? of course she won't. what a shame. coz i really was starting to like her sincerely and then she had to go back to her betterthanthou act. i wish she'd just stop thinking like she's better than everyone. just because she doesn't curse or drink. i found out about that when alex brought a canned beer and i just took a little sip from it. well. i can't blame her. because drinking is a bad habit. but not drinking (or cursing) won't make her better than any of us.

luv reg