hidden window

whatever.our assignment for literature class was to divide a bond paper into four squares.the squares stand for four different windows:
1. OPEN window - know to you; and known to others
2. BLIND window - known to others; unknown to you
3. HIDDEN window - known to you; unknown to others
4. CLOSED window - unknown to you; unknown to others

i planned on not passing, but i ended up doing it anyway.i guess, because i saw everyone doing theirs.i only filled up the OPEN window and let my friends fill in the BLIND window.for the HIDDEN window, i wrote:

"yoko po.may mga bagay kasi na hindi na kelangan malaman ng mga tao tungkol sakin.akala nila kilala na nila ako pero hindi pa talaga.pero okei na sakin yung ganito.ayoko ng malaman nila, ayoko ng magbago ang tingin nila sakin."

i just hope the teacher respects my decision not to write in that window..and then..some students shared in front of the class..
and then, one of my closest friends did too.and i knew..i knew..na ako ang pinapatamaan niya.

eugs: yung ineexpect mo pag pasok mo ganun parin, pero hindi pala. tapos parang ikaw na lang yung tanga na nagho-hold on dun sa friendship niyo..

ako din naman eh..4th yr didn't turn out the way i expected it to be..i thought, having her as a classmate again after 2 years..wow.yay.i'm with one of my closest friends again!woo.i thought it was easy to balance the barkada and her.but i guess i thought wrong.i should have known it was all too good to be easy.i didn't mean to hurt her--if i did.and i think i did. but i want her to know that i'm hurt also..because she never seems to open up anymore..nakakapanghinayang lang naman. i'll talk to her. but not now. give her time to think, to cool off, time to adjust. i don't want to lose our friendship..

we may not be as close now as we were during our freshie year, but. yung mga pinagdaanan namin, yung mga napag-usapan namin, iba yun eh. she's definitely one of those friends na hindi ko malilimutan..

eugs, ako din. iba yung nangyari sa inexpect ko.. at vinavalue ko din naman friendship natin.sana alam mo yun bes. =D