double drill day

"be tough." that's what i kept on saying to myself this day since we had a double drill day sa CAT. "no matter what, don't fall out.show them you're tough."

"tough times never last but tough people do," a book states. CAT is only for a year but the need to be tough will last till i die. people say i'm strong..because i always smile,i always crack jokes and i act as if i don't give a damn to problems.but i do, and you know it. someone asked me how i can still appear happy outside. my answer? i don't really know. but i like making people happy. and that makes me happy too.

"..but i wonder if you also appear happy in your grandparents' house," someone told me. no i dont. i'm the complete opposite of who i am in school. because, as aryan said, at home, i don't need to appear strong. maybe she's right. there's no one in this house that i need to be strong for. so why try to appear strong?

at school, there're a million reasons why. i don't need other people to see me crying in some corner although that happened a few times already when i couldn't take it anymore.. i dont want them to know every single detail about my life.

cellphone quote: it's easier to smile than explain to people who will never understand."

but it's also sweet to explain to people who don't understand but they try and they want to. now those are friends!

ayokong magpapansin sa mga tao sa school.. okei na sakin na ang may alam lang ng life story ko ay ang mga taong malapit sakin. the others? they need not know.

after all.. would they care?

PLUGGER: FIFI