"as happens sometimes, a moment settled and hovered and remained for much more than a moment. and sound stopped and movement stopped for much,much more than a moment and then the moment was gone."
- Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck
'Every day you wait is another day you won't get back again."
-Coach Whitey, One Tree Hill
MY NEVERLAND
ALANGANIN.
too old to be young, too young to be old.
RIGHT NOW, I'M JUST TAKING LIFE AS IT COMES.
2007-67799
"College is the best time of your life. When else are your parents going to spend several thousand dollars a year just for you to go to a strange town and get drunk every night?" - David Wood
too old to be young, too young to be old.
RIGHT NOW, I'M JUST TAKING LIFE AS IT COMES.
2007-67799
"College is the best time of your life. When else are your parents going to spend several thousand dollars a year just for you to go to a strange town and get drunk every night?" - David Wood
Sunday, August 03, 2008
10:52 PM POOLS OF SORROW. WAVES OF JOY.
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Thursday, July 31, 2008
grabe, after how many months, ngayon na lang ulit ako nakapagblog. and i thought i had given up on blogging. i ran out of topics, i ran out of time, i ran out of willingness to blog. still, what matters most is that right now, for the meantime, i am reunited with my blog.
so for the past three weeks, i have been a different Regina Ongkiko. Gone (for the meantime) is the Regina who spends every break time at Area51. Gone is the Regina who goes home late because of simply NOT wanting to be home. Gone is the Regina who is pretty much relaxed about everything.
for the past three weeks, I have been an applicant of the UPLB Development Communicators' Society, the org of both my parents, my cousin and their close friends. Wait, I wasn't pushed into this. Sure, the idea of joining was introduced to me by my father but the mismong decision to join was made by me. when i made that decision, i knew i'd have to sacrifice a lot of things but i was willing to do anything to be a part of this organization.
ayun. mahirap. hehe. no kidding. kahit na sabi nila na hindi daw ako mukhang haggard, oo haggard ako. ngayon lang ako nakapagpuyat ng ganto. ngayon ko lang naramdaman tong presure na to. oo, obviously i've always lived with pressure. pressure because of who my parents are, pressure because they all know me. as in. define pressure! haha.
eto pa. i realized that i had been too attached to my high school batchmates that during my first year in college, i didn't take the time to get to know my college batchmates. ngayon, dahil sa application process na to, mas nakikilala ko sila at narealize ko how much i've missed the past year.
hmmm.anu pa ba.sabi nila lahat role playing lang daw lahat to. i try to keep that in mind, pero minsan, mahirap talaga. we are challenged physically, mentally and emotionally. batch unity is tested too. tinuturuan kaming mag-assert, at panindigan ang pinaniniwalaan namin. dito sa process, tinetest lang daw talaga kami. lahat sila dumaan sa ganito, mas malala pa nung panahon nila. unfair naman kung hindi namin to maxperience. ibig sabihin hindi kami deserving. at syempre, tinuro din sa amin na hindi lahat ng gusto mo ay makukuha mo ng ganoon kadali.
pero, weird enough, kahit na mahirap, nakakapagod at minsan talaga mararamdaman mo na gusto mo na itigil to, enjoy parin siya kahit papaano eh. batch meetings every night, kwentuhan tungkol sa experiences sa araw na yun, at kahit na pagod na pagod na lahat at may mga naiyak pa, laging may mahahanap na bagay na pwedeng pagtawanan. and if you're leaning towards the quitting side, may pumipigil sayo eh. BATCHMATES MO. because we all entered this together. at dapat lahat ng sinisimulan, tinatapos. at actually, kahit na 11 na lang kami, alam namin na kaming 11 yung 11 na talagang determined at talagang makikiramay hanggang dulo.
grabe 2 days na lang. namiss ko dati kong buhay, pero hindi ako nagrregret na nagaapply ako. ang dami kong natutunan. ang daming nagbago, and most of all, i found out that i really love my ten batchmates. walang iwanan, walang samaan ng loob. lahat kami, sama sama. :)
so for the past three weeks, i have been a different Regina Ongkiko. Gone (for the meantime) is the Regina who spends every break time at Area51. Gone is the Regina who goes home late because of simply NOT wanting to be home. Gone is the Regina who is pretty much relaxed about everything.
for the past three weeks, I have been an applicant of the UPLB Development Communicators' Society, the org of both my parents, my cousin and their close friends. Wait, I wasn't pushed into this. Sure, the idea of joining was introduced to me by my father but the mismong decision to join was made by me. when i made that decision, i knew i'd have to sacrifice a lot of things but i was willing to do anything to be a part of this organization.
ayun. mahirap. hehe. no kidding. kahit na sabi nila na hindi daw ako mukhang haggard, oo haggard ako. ngayon lang ako nakapagpuyat ng ganto. ngayon ko lang naramdaman tong presure na to. oo, obviously i've always lived with pressure. pressure because of who my parents are, pressure because they all know me. as in. define pressure! haha.
eto pa. i realized that i had been too attached to my high school batchmates that during my first year in college, i didn't take the time to get to know my college batchmates. ngayon, dahil sa application process na to, mas nakikilala ko sila at narealize ko how much i've missed the past year.
hmmm.anu pa ba.sabi nila lahat role playing lang daw lahat to. i try to keep that in mind, pero minsan, mahirap talaga. we are challenged physically, mentally and emotionally. batch unity is tested too. tinuturuan kaming mag-assert, at panindigan ang pinaniniwalaan namin. dito sa process, tinetest lang daw talaga kami. lahat sila dumaan sa ganito, mas malala pa nung panahon nila. unfair naman kung hindi namin to maxperience. ibig sabihin hindi kami deserving. at syempre, tinuro din sa amin na hindi lahat ng gusto mo ay makukuha mo ng ganoon kadali.
pero, weird enough, kahit na mahirap, nakakapagod at minsan talaga mararamdaman mo na gusto mo na itigil to, enjoy parin siya kahit papaano eh. batch meetings every night, kwentuhan tungkol sa experiences sa araw na yun, at kahit na pagod na pagod na lahat at may mga naiyak pa, laging may mahahanap na bagay na pwedeng pagtawanan. and if you're leaning towards the quitting side, may pumipigil sayo eh. BATCHMATES MO. because we all entered this together. at dapat lahat ng sinisimulan, tinatapos. at actually, kahit na 11 na lang kami, alam namin na kaming 11 yung 11 na talagang determined at talagang makikiramay hanggang dulo.
grabe 2 days na lang. namiss ko dati kong buhay, pero hindi ako nagrregret na nagaapply ako. ang dami kong natutunan. ang daming nagbago, and most of all, i found out that i really love my ten batchmates. walang iwanan, walang samaan ng loob. lahat kami, sama sama. :)
11:36 AM POOLS OF SORROW. WAVES OF JOY.
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Sunday, December 23, 2007
trips lang mag-update.wala namang isusulat.
mali. madame pala. madame talaga. i mean, madame akong gusto isulat pero walang nalabas. ewan ko bakit.
i guess, i got tired of explaining stuff.
mali. madame pala. madame talaga. i mean, madame akong gusto isulat pero walang nalabas. ewan ko bakit.
i guess, i got tired of explaining stuff.
7:15 AM POOLS OF SORROW. WAVES OF JOY.
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Sunday, November 11, 2007
(just for the sake of posting something.)
what my college days are made of: (7 essentials)
1) BORDO BURGERS: big burgers, reasonable prices, near area51, and a great atmosphere for bonding with friends. hmm so the burger preparation is a bit long and calls for patience, but so what? while waiting for the burgers, you can talk to your companions about anything. there's just something about the place that makes you want to stay even after you've already finished your burger. my favorite? HELLFIRE with lots and lots and lots of hotsauce! :D
2) AREA51 PARTIES: birthday parties, celebration parties, or wala lang parties. any excuse just to party and eat lots of food and hang out with the people at area51. pizza, sisig, beer, fishballs, zagu, piknik, cashew nuts, pansit, pandesal, and munchkins. we can party anytime. and as we party, we talk about dota, about acads, and basically anything. and sometimes, we even have mini-film showings of youtube videos. area51 is really a family.
3) BUKO de FRUTAS: nothing beats a huge fresh fruit salad with buko for only 49php! plus, it's just across the street from area51. spell sobrang sulit! hehe. plus it's refreshing at sobrang nakakabusog! may mango, melon, watermelon, at syempre buko. haha. aaah! tapos nung last week ko lang napansin na may lychee din pala! aaw. :( ohwell. try nyo, must-eat ito especially on super duper hot days in elbi.
4) KUYA VINCENT: we used to call him Manong Fishball, but now we know his real name. his spot is smack in front of area51. aside from being the official provider of the official fishballs, squidballs, kwekkwek, kikiam and chickenballs of area51, kuya vincent is also the local provider of coins! he's also considered to be part of the tropang area51. masayang kakwentuhan, at palagi pang may libreng fishball na dagdag!
5) DotA: not a day passes without the mention of the word "DotA". sometimes we go through a day without playing this game if we're really busy but still, the word is mentioned. when one enters the shop, you can hear these words at once : "tara, dota! scare?" boys, girls, kiddies, oldies play this cursed game. fun, addicting, yet also the reason why students cut classes, skip meals and go home late at night.
6) eLBi square: still right across area51, here one can choose from a multitude of eating places and tambayans. madalas sa Eat Sumo kami kumakaen or nagpapa-deliver na lang.usually, students who are trying to save money eat the stuff at Hot Plate, the first place you'll see when you enter the Square. hmm.anu pa ba. CRIBS, huling tambay ko dito ay summer pa. ang mahal kasi, but fun. :)
7) AMIGAS' CR SESSIONS: the perfect way to end a day full of headaches, sunburns and academics. the door at the back of area51 contains a CR, a bodega, and an ashtray. i don't smoke-i have never even tried it. only one amiga smokes, but the rest of us like to spend time inside that small room just to laugh aloud, to cry, to comfort one another and to simply talk about stuff. it doesn't matter to us if the room smells of yosi or if we're surrounded by garbage bags. this room is where we really bond.
yup. 7 essentials of my college life! to cut it short: friends, food and dota! haha! tomorrow, i'm officially going to be an OF (Old Freshman) as i pay for my tuition and get my form 5. time flies? sure does. xD
what my college days are made of: (7 essentials)
1) BORDO BURGERS: big burgers, reasonable prices, near area51, and a great atmosphere for bonding with friends. hmm so the burger preparation is a bit long and calls for patience, but so what? while waiting for the burgers, you can talk to your companions about anything. there's just something about the place that makes you want to stay even after you've already finished your burger. my favorite? HELLFIRE with lots and lots and lots of hotsauce! :D
2) AREA51 PARTIES: birthday parties, celebration parties, or wala lang parties. any excuse just to party and eat lots of food and hang out with the people at area51. pizza, sisig, beer, fishballs, zagu, piknik, cashew nuts, pansit, pandesal, and munchkins. we can party anytime. and as we party, we talk about dota, about acads, and basically anything. and sometimes, we even have mini-film showings of youtube videos. area51 is really a family.
3) BUKO de FRUTAS: nothing beats a huge fresh fruit salad with buko for only 49php! plus, it's just across the street from area51. spell sobrang sulit! hehe. plus it's refreshing at sobrang nakakabusog! may mango, melon, watermelon, at syempre buko. haha. aaah! tapos nung last week ko lang napansin na may lychee din pala! aaw. :( ohwell. try nyo, must-eat ito especially on super duper hot days in elbi.
4) KUYA VINCENT: we used to call him Manong Fishball, but now we know his real name. his spot is smack in front of area51. aside from being the official provider of the official fishballs, squidballs, kwekkwek, kikiam and chickenballs of area51, kuya vincent is also the local provider of coins! he's also considered to be part of the tropang area51. masayang kakwentuhan, at palagi pang may libreng fishball na dagdag!
5) DotA: not a day passes without the mention of the word "DotA". sometimes we go through a day without playing this game if we're really busy but still, the word is mentioned. when one enters the shop, you can hear these words at once : "tara, dota! scare?" boys, girls, kiddies, oldies play this cursed game. fun, addicting, yet also the reason why students cut classes, skip meals and go home late at night.
7) AMIGAS' CR SESSIONS: the perfect way to end a day full of headaches, sunburns and academics. the door at the back of area51 contains a CR, a bodega, and an ashtray. i don't smoke-i have never even tried it. only one amiga smokes, but the rest of us like to spend time inside that small room just to laugh aloud, to cry, to comfort one another and to simply talk about stuff. it doesn't matter to us if the room smells of yosi or if we're surrounded by garbage bags. this room is where we really bond.yup. 7 essentials of my college life! to cut it short: friends, food and dota! haha! tomorrow, i'm officially going to be an OF (Old Freshman) as i pay for my tuition and get my form 5. time flies? sure does. xD
12:05 AM POOLS OF SORROW. WAVES OF JOY.
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Tuesday, October 23, 2007
i think i failed math11.
well.that's what i think.
i can't say i didn't try. i answered the workbook. i spent a lot of money on handouts.i answered the sample exams over and over again.i even asked some people to tutor me every chance i had.
i admit i was lazy at first. i had low exam scores. but i studied, and then i had higher quiz scores.
but math? i can't, don't and never will understand it.
what?i can't be good in everything.i can boast about my grade of 1 in english2 and my 1.75 in psy1. but i can never boast about my grade in math11. when i told people about it, i was smiling-laughing even. but the truth is, i am very much ashamed of it.
if ever i would have to repeat math11, ill do better. i did my best, but i guess i should do better than my best. it's math after all. and it's a thousand per unit in UP. i will save money though so my parents won't have to pay for my take 2.
i feel so stupid.there are a lot of things i can be proud of. this is not one of them.
well.that's what i think.
i can't say i didn't try. i answered the workbook. i spent a lot of money on handouts.i answered the sample exams over and over again.i even asked some people to tutor me every chance i had.
i admit i was lazy at first. i had low exam scores. but i studied, and then i had higher quiz scores.
but math? i can't, don't and never will understand it.
what?i can't be good in everything.i can boast about my grade of 1 in english2 and my 1.75 in psy1. but i can never boast about my grade in math11. when i told people about it, i was smiling-laughing even. but the truth is, i am very much ashamed of it.
if ever i would have to repeat math11, ill do better. i did my best, but i guess i should do better than my best. it's math after all. and it's a thousand per unit in UP. i will save money though so my parents won't have to pay for my take 2.
i feel so stupid.there are a lot of things i can be proud of. this is not one of them.
9:50 PM POOLS OF SORROW. WAVES OF JOY.
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Saturday, September 29, 2007
iba.iba talaga yung feeling na nasa UPRHS ulit. siguro daw iba na yung tingin sa amin ng mga freshies. for some reason kasi, nahasa na kame ng rural. andami naming natutunan--not just academics. sa rural kame nagka-personality talaga. ang habol naman daw ng iba kaya pumunta kahapon ay ang makasama lang ulit ang batchmates. naglolokohan nga kami ng "sa lahat ng ginawa naten, akalain mo yun, naka-graduate pa tayo."
iba din kasi talaga ang simplicity and complications ng high school life.
tapos syempre, may effect din yung nasa rural talaga kami. our territory.it felt good to be back. we even reminisced a bit. yak i sound so mushy. haha. pero kahapon, nung nasa rural talaga, it felt sooo.. ewan. haha. i felt at peace. sa rural kasi nangyari ang four best years of my life. best? oo naman. high school yun eh. madaming experiences, madaming changes. we grew up in rural high.
sabi ng isa kong batchmate kahapon, nung paalis na kami ng rural nung hapon, "iba talaga dito.babalik at babalik ka parin eh."
how true. and i'm now looking forward to the sembreak. reunion na ng UPRHS Class o7! :)
iba din kasi talaga ang simplicity and complications ng high school life.
tapos syempre, may effect din yung nasa rural talaga kami. our territory.it felt good to be back. we even reminisced a bit. yak i sound so mushy. haha. pero kahapon, nung nasa rural talaga, it felt sooo.. ewan. haha. i felt at peace. sa rural kasi nangyari ang four best years of my life. best? oo naman. high school yun eh. madaming experiences, madaming changes. we grew up in rural high.
sabi ng isa kong batchmate kahapon, nung paalis na kami ng rural nung hapon, "iba talaga dito.babalik at babalik ka parin eh."
how true. and i'm now looking forward to the sembreak. reunion na ng UPRHS Class o7! :)
Labels: growing up, random stuff
9:16 PM POOLS OF SORROW. WAVES OF JOY.
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Thursday, September 20, 2007
such awesome friendship. you'd never expect it started just because of some game.
carabao park, late at night. three girls sitting side by side. jizza,aryan and me. talking. about dota, about area, about guys, about girls, about memories. and then we suddenly talked about our current set of friends.
we call ourselves the DotA-amigas.mainly because we are girls, who play DotA. before summer, there were only a few girls who played this game. as usual, because guys are the rulers in this domain. so we stuck together. magyayaya. "sige, tara!" kanina, we laughed as we reminisced those days. nung wala pa kaming alam sa dota. naglalaro ng walang items. walang alam na items. hindi alam ang denies. soooo noob! harhar! :))
ngayon, the guys have accepted us as dota players. nauuso na ang mixed girls and boys pag nagdodota ngayon. adik na kame sa moneyshots and denies, and we know all about item builds. but i'm way beyond what i'm trying to say. baka mapa-lecture pa ako tungkol sa dota.haha.
anyway.all of us DotA amigas.well, we're high school batchmates. we know each other, basically but we came from different barkadas. it was DotA that brought us together. lalu na ngayong college. the DotA-amigas eLBi chapter has evolved. dati, dota lang. ngayon, it's an awesome friendship. siguro kasi palagi na kami ang magkakasama. pero ngayon, eto na siguro ang barkada ko.
when we have problems, we tell the amigas. we laugh and eat and talk with amigas. grabe. imagine. dahil lang sa DotA kaya kami naging close. at hindi basta bastang close. kakaiba eh. :) ang saya noh. haha.
just a simple game and a span of a few months and.. POOF! (it became coco crunch!haha.)
POOF! the greatest, funniest and craziest set of friends one could have. :D
carabao park, late at night. three girls sitting side by side. jizza,aryan and me. talking. about dota, about area, about guys, about girls, about memories. and then we suddenly talked about our current set of friends.
we call ourselves the DotA-amigas.mainly because we are girls, who play DotA. before summer, there were only a few girls who played this game. as usual, because guys are the rulers in this domain. so we stuck together. magyayaya. "sige, tara!" kanina, we laughed as we reminisced those days. nung wala pa kaming alam sa dota. naglalaro ng walang items. walang alam na items. hindi alam ang denies. soooo noob! harhar! :))
ngayon, the guys have accepted us as dota players. nauuso na ang mixed girls and boys pag nagdodota ngayon. adik na kame sa moneyshots and denies, and we know all about item builds. but i'm way beyond what i'm trying to say. baka mapa-lecture pa ako tungkol sa dota.haha.
anyway.all of us DotA amigas.well, we're high school batchmates. we know each other, basically but we came from different barkadas. it was DotA that brought us together. lalu na ngayong college. the DotA-amigas eLBi chapter has evolved. dati, dota lang. ngayon, it's an awesome friendship. siguro kasi palagi na kami ang magkakasama. pero ngayon, eto na siguro ang barkada ko.
when we have problems, we tell the amigas. we laugh and eat and talk with amigas. grabe. imagine. dahil lang sa DotA kaya kami naging close. at hindi basta bastang close. kakaiba eh. :) ang saya noh. haha.
just a simple game and a span of a few months and.. POOF! (it became coco crunch!haha.)
POOF! the greatest, funniest and craziest set of friends one could have. :D
6:26 AM POOLS OF SORROW. WAVES OF JOY.
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REGINA.maangas daw at KUPAL.i am not tall.NAUGHTY.
LAZY.girl gamer.BASKETCASE.brutal.hates make-up and high heels opinionated.frank.CLUMSY.matakaw.tambay.moody.
idolizes CALVIN of CALVIN&HOBBES
may topak.mababaw ang kaligayahan.mabilis maasar.mahilig gumanti.
naiirita sa mga batang namamalimos habang nakaen ka.haha.
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