out of boredom

i miss blogging. i realized that just this Christmas vacation when I found myself online almost 24/7 doing nothing except Facebooking. Haha. I realized I missed blogging after 2 years. Wow. Then I thought "Why not create a new blog? Start from scratch? Since I've changed a lot, why not? New me, newer blog."

Guess what.
I chickened out.

I knew I can never update that new blog when school starts again on January. God, when I was an avid blogger with THREE blogs, was I really that bored? Did I really have nothing to do? That sucks. While now, I am probably one of the busiest girls on campus being part of the University Student Council, an academic organization and a sorority.

Maybe, just maybe, I miss blogging because deep down inside me, I am still a writer. When nothing left to do, I write. And I miss having blogs available for me to write in anytime. It's sad isn't it? Blogging used to be my life. And now, I just blog to cure my boredom.

And now. Gone is the emo template. And here now, is one of blogspot's basic templates. Why not go back to basics? :) I had the courage to delete my two blogs. I don't know why I can't delete this one. Probably just so I can always have something to hold on to.

so high school.

iba.iba talaga yung feeling na nasa UPRHS ulit. siguro daw iba na yung tingin sa amin ng mga freshies. for some reason kasi, nahasa na kame ng rural. andami naming natutunan--not just academics. sa rural kame nagka-personality talaga. ang habol naman daw ng iba kaya pumunta kahapon ay ang makasama lang ulit ang batchmates. naglolokohan nga kami ng "sa lahat ng ginawa naten, akalain mo yun, naka-graduate pa tayo."

iba din kasi talaga ang simplicity and complications ng high school life.

tapos syempre, may effect din yung nasa rural talaga kami. our territory.it felt good to be back. we even reminisced a bit. yak i sound so mushy. haha. pero kahapon, nung nasa rural talaga, it felt sooo.. ewan. haha. i felt at peace. sa rural kasi nangyari ang four best years of my life. best? oo naman. high school yun eh. madaming experiences, madaming changes. we grew up in rural high.

sabi ng isa kong batchmate kahapon, nung paalis na kami ng rural nung hapon, "iba talaga dito.babalik at babalik ka parin eh."

how true. and i'm now looking forward to the sembreak. reunion na ng UPRHS Class o7! :)

my history with clothes

clothes=memories

1. the shirt i wore when i first had my braces was also the same shirt i wore when my braces were taken off. yep!i had my braces for 1 year and 5 months. the shirt i wore was the faded red old navy one.

2. my black chuck taylors.my first pair. as in super worn out. super dirty with holes pa.hehe.i wear those whenever i'm not so sure about my exams that day. why? i stupidly think those shoes are lucky mainly because they've been with me during my most memorable experiences. i wore those sneakers when MS was first created, and when i got drunk and MS almost broke up. i wore those chucks during a concert two years ago. i wore those sneakers to dances, to celebrations, to grad practices, crying sessions, laughing sessions. weird right? but i think those memories are already embedded into those sneakers, thus, giving me luck. :)

3. my light blue super faded jeans with the hole sa knee. look closely, may yellow paint sa upper thigh. those were the jeans i wore the last time i drank alcohol. why the yellow paint? bumangga pa ko sa newly painted poste sa may Minute Burger.

4. yung FLAMMABLE shirt. i wore that during our batch recollection before we graduated kasi. and wala lang. yung shirt kasi is anti-drinking and anti-smoking. i remember that i ordered it because i just wanted a new shirt. but a friend told me, "wag mo susuotin yan pag nainom ka." so i had the shirt for quite a while but i never wore it. hindi pa ako worthy. kahit na i decided to stop drinking, i still didn't wear it. the recollection day was the first time i felt i had earned the right to wear that shirt. :)
**isa pa, may super memorable experience na nangyari saken while i was wearing that shirt. clue? basta. :)

5. yung black polo shirt ng FAST. mainly because, ang FAST ay all-boys club and yet, may shirt kami ni katE. plus, mejo kakaiba ang mga nangyayari sa akin tuwing suot ko ang hamak na shirt na yun. 3x na.. basta. yun. :) ito din pala yung shirt na suot ko nung nag-register ako sa UPLB last may10 at nakaranas ng medical check-up.. well, syempre hindi ko to suot habang nagmemedical check-up kasi uhm.. alam nyo na yun!lols. :D ito din yung shirt ko nung first time akong ma-involve sa isang DotA-tournament.not as a player, but as taga-hawak lang ng registration fee!waha.at least. :))

6. my red Artwork shirt na nakasulat sa harap "YOU ARE MY PORKCHOP, MY ONLY PORKCHOP." first time i saw this shirt, i fell in love with it but i didn't have the money. so nung nagkapera ako, yan ang una kong binili. and ito din yung first shirt i wore 2007. yep. december 31-january 1 ko yan suot!walang tulugan!last shirt for 2006, first for 2007.


haaay.onti pa lang yan.hehe.whenever i plan what i'm going to wear, i always end up reminiscing. i also vividly remember one time, basta one major event yun. i set aside my black chucks and put on my orange chucks--new at that time.

sabi ko "it's your turn to make some memories."

**recollection 2007. the flammable shirt, the stolen shot, the big laugh and the long hair a few months back. **

a mess

i actually cleaned my room yesterday.not because i wanted to, but because i had to, and they all made me do it.well, cleaning my room is really a hard task. you'll only understand what i mean when you see for yourself my room.ahaha. >:) too bad my room's all clean now.

i've been "rooming" there since 1st year high school.and no matter how many people tell me that the room is a rathole, it's okay for me since it's MY room.MY stuff.and i know where my things are.it may look disorganized to you but it's perfectly organized for me.

and yesterday, as i was cleaning it up i had to divide my stuff into groups.

*stuff to be taken to the dorm
*stuff to throw
*stuff to give away
*stuff to keep in my grandparents' house.

i had to be harsh to my things. i had to throw stuff that were useless, even though they held so many memories. i had to throw away pieces of paper that i used to draw on when i'm bored in school.sux.i had to give away stuff that were memorable, yet useless.

and it hit me.that room sort of symbolized my high school life.i filled it up at the start of 1st yr high school and now, before going to college, i'm leaving it and emptying it. that room held all the stuff i've been through during my high school life.books,notes,gifts,clothes,shoes.memories.haha and you know i'm a sucker for memories.

to most people my room is a mess.it's disorganized and stuff.
to some people,my high school life was a mess, full of stuff they didn't understand.

just like my room.

and just as i left high school, i'm now leaving that room.

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btw.may dilaw pala na pakwan?!as in.yellow na watermelon. [okay in-english ko lng.haha.]
weird.

in neverland..

in Neverland, children never grow up.they don't have to worry about things..things that we're worrying about now.oldies keep on saying that i'm starting to grow up.maybe i am.my batchmates and i are on the brink of growing up.and now..during the peter pan practices, i realized..i don't wanna grow up!

it's a lot more fun to run around like little kids.it's fun to think of nothing except the great time you're having with your friends. when you have nothing to worry about..things like homework, or grades, or parents, or grandparents in my case.. i like going back to childhood days..no worries..just playtime everyday.. but i know.. all children grow up.

except for one.

peter pan. :(