Final Countdown

A few weeks from now and I will embark on my 4th year in college. Supposedly my last year. But because of enjoying the world a little too much, I am extended for another year. So. Two more years. Two more years and then what? I don't really know. I'd be living my own life, I guess.

Looking Forward:

I have a lot of dreams actually. I want to get married and have kids. I want to work and be able to provide for my family. I want my kids to grow up knowing the most important people in my life. I want to be the most amazing mother in the world. I want to have a job that I love, a job that I will never get tired of doing. I want to learn to cook, so I can cook for the man I love and also for my kids. I want to learn to cook so we can invent recipes in our kitchen together. I want our dream house to become real.

I want to stay with you forever, Henry Mark Binahon. I want to fall asleep beside you every day of my life, and wake up in the morning with you still beside me. I want to kiss you goodnight and goodmorning. I want to make you smile every single day of your life. I want all our dreams and our plans to become true. I want to continue loving you until we're too old to remember anything except our feelings for one another.

I want my kids to become close to the kids of Aryan, Jizza, Kyel, Sam, my brods and sisses, and orgmates and Area51/Impound people. I want to stay connected with all of them. I want my children to go to UPLB where they will mature and where they will meet the love of their lives.

I want to be someone that I can be proud of.

Looking at the coming year:

It is the final countdown of most of my friends, after this year, they will be in the wild. In the real world. And while I still have two years to go, I will make the most of it, to prepare myself for whatever comes next.

They say you can't have it all. I don't know why I even bother trying.

my 2009. :)

Kung akala ko dati ang tanda ko na, nako. May itatanda pa pala ako. Dahil 2009 was the year I turned 18! Yes, legal na sa wakas. I thought na wala nang tatalo sa 2007 and 2008 ko. But I was wrong. Haha. Sure enough, 2009 topped the past years.


And here are the highlights of this amazing year. :)

Syempre, why not start the year with a new look? Hehe. After having my waist-length hair cut last September 2008 until above my shoulders, I went for an even shorter, even funkier and even more chic hairstyle.


Then the Baguio Field trip with my Devcomsoc Batchmates plus King and Chin was an awesome experience too. We went to see the Panagbenga festival, we sang songs in the van, we took amazing photographs and we bonded for three days straight. Haay. I will never get tired of them. :)

Winning as the College Representative for the College of Development Communication was no easy victory. Sure enough, this provided a lot of challenges for me within the year. I also became more active and more aware of issues inside and outside the campus.

Joining a sorority was something I have always wanted to do since high school. Something was always just holding me back. College came and I felt the urge even more and finally, I joined the UP Theta Epsilon Sorority. :)

Signals '08 celebrated our first anniversary as members of the UPLB DEVCOMSOC. We went to Enchanted Kingdom and had a month-long celebration filled with midnight walks and drinking escapades. :)

Making Waves 2009 and the 37th Anniversary of UPLB DEVCOMSOC was a tiring but fulfilling way to end the year. We'll always be on top of the odds. :)

Area51 closed down but we found a new place: IMPOUND. Different place, different management, but still the same best group of friends and gamers. :)

Ihsa came back for a visit but also left. But not before having some super bonding moments and talks enough to last until her next visit. :)

At syempre, 2009 was also the year I met Mr. Henry Mark Q. Binahon. Weee! Eto super highlight talaga! Hehe. Gusto niyo malaman paano ako patawanin at pasayahin? Tanong niyo siya, pero I doubt hindi niyo parin magagawa as well as he does. :) Hindi ko rin naman inexpect na magkakaboyfriend ulit ako pero diba nga, kaya dapat hindi tayo nageexpect, para may surprises tayo. :) I'm one happy girl ngayon dahil sakanya. Sorry cheeeeesy. Haha. I love you :)

Few more highlights:
*finally moving out from my grandparents' house and experiencing college life at its best. :)
*heading the Program Committee for Making Waves 2009
*a lot of ups and downs during the middle of the year but everything's still intact.
*becoming an Elder for ThE Sorority :)
*my constant weight gain and loss.haha!
*riding on a truck with my sisses plus Mark and Arjay and a bunch of strangers because the water was waist-high during Ondoy. :)))

Andami rin pala highlights ng 2009 ko. Haha. Sobra pa sa inexpect. So once again, wag nga magexpect. Haha! Pero seriously, isa ito sa pinaka eventful and dramatic years. Or maybe, parang napansin ko, as the years go by, each becomes more and more eventful.

I can't wait to see what 2010 will bring us. :)

taken during the Signals '08 Enchanted Kingdom expedition
WON'T YOU WRAP ME UP IN A DREAM WITH YOU?

MOVE ON

intrams next week.scimath ended today.

what a sembreak.no.it's not because of the fucking scimath fair or the intrams.naah.it's because of well.. what's happening to me.to him.to her.to her.to them.to us.to him again.to everyone.

Story 1
she likes him a lot.they were actually sorta like a couple two years ago. but she got bored with him. and dumped him. now he's moved on and very happy with his new girl. and now, she wants to get back together with him. in fact, here's the truth: she wants to break them up. and if she does succeed.. know what will happen? someone will get hurt. now, she's our friend. but i don't support her decision in wanting to break them up. i don't want to see anybody get hurt.

Story 2
she wants to get back together with this guy. this guy and me..we're very close.always texting and talking, and you get the idea, right? we're not sure if he still has feelings for her. but she.. is one of my best friends. and you see the dilemma here right? i don't wanna ruin a friendship.

if they get back together, i'll get hurt but nobody has to know. if they don't get back together, she'll get hurt.. and everyone will know. and some of my friends think it's possible that we might have a "something" sooner or later. and well.. sometimes i wish there wouldn't. less conflict. less problems.


the girl in story 1 is.. selfish. i don't take that against her. i'm selfish too. we're all selfish. come on.. we all want everything going for us the way we want it. raaaayt?

irish told me i'm not selfish. she said she doesn't see anything selfish about me. but oh yes, i am. why? coz i want him. but at the same time, i wish they'd just get back together so everybody happy.

except me. but who cares?

"you know what people's problems are?" aryan said. "they care too much."

HELP me, ANYONE?

"naulan ng mga lab layp"

this day has been too dramatic.

first i shared my "hard candy" story to ihsa and eugenia.sandra and irish will know about it tomorrow.hard candy daw sabi ni ihsa dahil pwede siyang ipadala sa candy magazine.but that story, my hard candy story was and still is something that i can't easily share to just anyone.it's something so.. different.

until today, only aryan knew about my hard candy story and that's because something happened to make me tell her.and i trust her so much too.then i told myself, "i'll tell this to the barkada one time.. maybe when they have boyfriends na." but that changed after i told ihsa and eugs.maybe i should tell the barkada because they're my friends..

i thought this could be a secret that only i will know.i guess i was wrong.maybe i told them the story because i had already let go..i want to forget it already.but it felt so hard telling them.but after i told them i felt great.. i'm glad i let them know.

and then i got to talk to some of my classmates last year and they all seem to have problems..more or less about their love lives..

quoted by ihsa kanina: "bakit ba naulan ng mga lalake ngaun?" LOLZ.

bakit nagkasabay sabay ang mga pag-unlad/pag-fade ng mga love life ng mga tao?is it because we're older?seniors na?did that have something to do with it?DAMN.we're growing up.