"the girl with the broken smile.."

"look for the girl with the broken smile,
ask her if she wants to stay a while.."

yes.i'd bet the world that you know this song.it's pretty old actually but it's been my theme song for the past few days just because of that line.my grandmother has a guideposts subscription as well as one to readers digest.anyway, Guideposts has an annual essay writing contest for teens about the trials they've experienced.lola said i should join because the prize is a full college scholarship.so i read the essays of the past winners.and i changed my mind about joining.

they lived tough lives.but their lives are now..patched up again.i mean, yeah, my life is patched up again.i mean, it's awesome that my stepmom is fabulous. that's a real blessing but the worst outcome of my mother's death was my grandparents' behavior. most of the past winners had divorced or deceased parents but no nagging grandparents. and lola told me that after i write my essay, i should show it to her before we send it. oh boy. show her an essay that contains some really bad stuff about her?not cool.so i guess i can't join.

first of all, because i don't want her to read it.second of all,it would have been better if i joined the essay without writing about granma troubles.but it said to write about troubles.and that's one of my major problems that unfortunately..still isn't over.*sigh*

and i was planning on writing about smiling despite problems, because people say that smiling is something i got from my real mom..and when i write that essay, and lola reads it, she'll think i'm living a happy life.you know i can lie.but i don't want to write an essay full of lies just so she will think i love her a lot.so i'm NOT joining.but i will write an essay.no one will ever get to read it.that's all.

and again..

"look for the girl with the broken smile,
ask her if she wants to stay a while.."

luv reg

pluggers: ARYAN,SANDRA,MICO,OSHEAN,CARS,KEVIN,ATE JO,SHE
miss ko na ang mga ito:johanna,pen,chong karlu,kimi

you won't like me when i'm mad

no.i'm not mad as of this moment.in fact i'm giddy and hyper.i'm super hyper today.the long UNO game is only part of the reason why.also the fact that there's electricity is only part of it.these times come you know--when i'm so giddy. and of course, the times when i'm so mad come next.and oh boy, you won't like me when i'm mad.

my stepmom said that she'll always remember that about me--that i get mad and i do weird stuff when i get mad.one time, during grade 5, i was so pissed off at my sister.i can't remember why but i remember that the nearest room was the bathroom.i rushed into the bathroom and screamed, and pulled the shower curtain off. omg. was i shocked. was my sister scared. were my parents amused. and mad because i ruined a perfectly new shower curtain.

another time, my grandmother was giving me and my sister a lecture. but i knew it was chiara's fault. so what i did was run towards her. she was sitting in front of the computer. i pushed her. i didn't know the chair was under repair. so the seat tilted and she fell off. i was shocked at what i did. anyway, i said i was sorry. and i still couldn't believe i did that.

i throw stuff around and scream a lot when i'm angry.but after that i cool down pretty fast and i pretend the thing never happened.as of now, whenever i remember the shower curtain incident, i get amused. weird, huh?

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i just read MICO's blogpost which was about our phone conversation last saturday. read it.it's very entertaining.and yes.it proves that girls ARE weird when they get together.

also,read ARYAN's blog to find out what we did today. and yes, i trust her. i really do. but she's right.some secrets weren't meant to be known by anyone.ever.

read SANDRA's blog too.there's a really cute poem there.she showed it to me today in her notebook during our chem exam.ahehe.

luv reg

gawd.i survived.

woo.almost 3 days without electricity.i still can't believe it happened.it wasn't really that bad.because it was storming.raining hard.the wind was so..unbelievable.but i liked it.it was cold.but of course it sucked that i couldn't go online for three freaking days.but i spent the night at my cousins' place where they had electricity.woo.but in my grandma's house.freakyyy..

imagine this.3 floors.dark.terraces.sliding doors.long stairs.and candles.wooooo..
gaah.can't blog about anything decent.except i just wanted to blog about the major blackout.
better post tomorrow.i swear.

btw.anu ba tlga?ipapalabas ba ang Da Vinci Code dito?shitness tlga pag di sila pumayag.it's art.

luv reg

destiny

yes, i believe in destiny.no matter how many times people have debated with me, i still believe in it.even if my teacher insisted that destiny doesn't exist, i don't care.ha!she's wrong.i know.heyy, if you don't believe in destiny,leave a comment telling me why.

i believe things will end up the way they're supposed to.i believe that everything in a person's life was planned out from the very beginning.what's meant to be will happen.it may not neccessarily end up how we want to.but that means that what we want..was not meant to be.

eh panu yung freewill? ayan.ayan ang pinaka-famous na pang-bara.pwes.may pang-bara rin aku diyan.every person has the right to make choices.what is life without choices and decisions?eh di parang di ka na rin nabuhay.this is what gets me.this is exactly what i and my other classmates who believe in destiny keep trying to tell the teacher.our choices were also destined.we were destined to make this choice..that choice, etc.

but i respect the opinions of others.i respect your decision if you don't believe in destiny. i just hope that she can respect our decision to believe in destiny.eh she keeps on saying, "wala.there's no such thing as destiny. you're wrong!" puteeeek. bahala na.

so ayun.nakausap ko si MICO nung isang araw.about his love life.hehe.sabi ko..un nga.what's meant to be will be.cguro life may not be going according to our wants right now.but i'm sure things will fall into place.or yun nga..maybe she's not the right one for you.anyway.even if she's not, the one for you will surely make you happier.. and if ever she really is the one for you, e di astig!

sabi ko rin kay DAN ung the same thing.what's meant to be will be.syempre it will hurt if it turns out that what we want..was not meant to be.

but..ayun.that's just my opinion. ikaw.oo.ikaw na ngbbsa ng blog ko ngaun. destiny or hindi? comments!amp.

luv reg

sense of humor

another ARYAN-REG conversation is stuck in my mind right now.anyone who knows us in real life knows that our conversations really are..uhm..weird.and funny.in different ways.today we talked about the different types of SOH(sense of humor).

TYPE 1 - Irish and Me
ARYAN said irish and i share the same kind of SOH.we can say some uh..really unpredictable stuff.and when we ride on each other's jokes and just like to laugh a lot.
example:whenever we ride on an elevator, irish makes the puking sound.which,coming from her,sounds totally hilarious.
example:i currently have a terrible cough.kanina,i couldn't stop coughing so i turned away from irish and the others and coughed away.when i finally stopped, i said "ay, dugo.may tb na ku!" those who heard it laughed and laughed.we're weird that way.
example:we also like making up stories.algebra exam today.checking time,we were defending our answers and making up solutions that absolutely did not consist of algebraic equations.
our only difference is..uhm..i can also ride on green jokes. >.<

TYPE 2 - ARYAN
aryan is..how should i say this?sobrang pilosopo!but that what makes her funny.she also says stuff that she hears wrong.usually,when she makes a comment about something,irish and i laugh and make up jokes about it.
example:our Reading Comprehension teacher kept on insisting today that the answer was "partly true" when in fact, most of us had answered "completely true".the other two choices were "completely false" and "partly false". when ma'am said the answer was "partly true", aryan suddenly blurted out "e di partly false din un?"
example: cayle was yelling "ang sweet!" over and over again.me, being the curious type said "cnu?" and it turned out aryan heard it wrong.she blurted out, "anu?pusit?"

TYPE 3 - SANDRA
sandra is the corniest girl in the world!but we love her for it.it's part of her so-called charm. we always tease her with stuff like "sandra!joke naman dyan!" coz usually when she tells a joke, it's so CORNY that no one laughs. and then we all suddenly laugh out very loud para mainis si sandra. whenever we're bored, we always call on her to tell a corny joke which is really..uhm..corny.as in not funny but we still give our all in laughing.
example: geez!to view the corniest ever jokes, the so-called "Nevermore" jokes, please [click.]

TYPE 4 - dumb?not really!just kidding!
aaah.ito..konting tao lang ang binabagayan nito.all of us tend to do this once in a while.but some of my classmates are professionals. you never know if they're just pretending to be dumb or they're really dumb.ahaha.lolz.no examples for this.you all know what it's like.

TYPE 5 - vulgarity
they say stuff without meaning to.lolz.
example:john2x has the weirdest expressions.and sometimes, buhol-buhol ang words niya so we always tease him "tagay pa!" his usual expressions are the curse words but sometimes he can come up with some really weird ones. this afternoon, we were all quiet.the algebra exam was crap!turns out he was really frustrated and suddenly yelled out "aha!huli ka hayop!" also this morning, he yelled out, "aah!tinamaan ng kulog!"
example:gale is sobrang pranka and cute.sometimes, kung anu-anu nlng lumalabas sa isip nyan!one time during geometry period, she turned to me and said "boboink..boink.." and her laugh is also really uhm.. nakakadala!

TYPE 6 - my twin
my twin is so darn funny in a weird way.
example:aryan and i just arrived in school.she saw us and suddenly..suddenly..she hops towards us, swinging her hands and singing "tralalalala"

haha.cge.e2 muna.e2 lng napasok sa utak ku eh.punta kau sa blog ni aryan.she's also gonna write about this.i think.haha.you?what type is your sense of humor?tag me and let me know!ahaha.

lalalalala-lalaluv makes the world go round..
luv reg

half-junior and half-senior

in about a month's time, i'll be a 4th year high school student.it all seems very strange.i mean,when i'll be filling out forms a month from now, the words "fourth year high school student" and the number 15 will be common.they make me seem old.

yesterday was the registration of the incoming freshies this year.it surprised me that some of them were so much smaller than me. *ay oo.alam kong hindi ako sobrang tangkad.wag niyo ng idiin, please lang!lol* and thoughts were running through my mind. stuff like "huwaw.tumangkad na rin pala ako since then!" *actually average lng naman ang height ko eh..whe..* hinde..seryoso.. stuff like "anu kayang iniisip nila pag dumadaan kami?" may respect ba? it is said that older people should be respected. one of the things i learned in UPRHS because of the famous "bullying". and yes, i was actually called a bully back in my sophomore year.oh, and also this year. anyway. anu kayang iniisip nila pag nadaan kami? o nakikita kami? natatakot na ba sila? iniisip ba nila kung magiging friends nila kami or isa sila sa mga malas na mabubully?

e2 naman iniisip ko ngaun.. "meron ba akong ibubully this year?" teka.. may word ba ibubully?or mas tama bang gamitin ang "bubulihin?" weird.

xenxa na.. hehe.. mejo high ako ngaun eh. *aah..not pertaining to height!*