forever.

okay.out of the blue i suddenly decided to blog.why?well i'm listening to my playlist and suddenly Blink182's First Date began playing.and you all know that there are lines in that song that keep on repeating.

"this may last forever, forever and ever.
let's make this last forever.
forever and ever
let's make this last forever."

of course i was singing along when the lyrics suddenly hit me. FOREVER. whattaword.
we say we want some moments to last forever. these moments are the ones that we really really treasure. but forever is an awfully long time. some say that forever means that there's no end. and besides, if a moment lasted forever, then we won't have as many memories, right?

people say "i'm going to be here for you forever.." blahblah. and then they disappear after a matter of years. in that case, their forever has ended. some of us don't really realize how powerful words are. in this case, forever.

i was reading a Chicken Soup book a long time ago and there was a cartoon there drawn by Randy Glasbergen i think. two girls talking to each other. one of them is saying "Brian told me he'd love me forever. then he told me about a Star Trek episode wherein scientists stated that forever might only last a day."

i'm not sure if those are the exact words. i'm not even sure if Brian was the name. basta it started with a B. haha. ^__^
anyway, you get my point. i think. or not.

ciao. :)

burnout

yep.super old song.by sugarfree.but i can't help it.it's been my theme song for the past days..weeks pala.last weekend nga eh, ang hilig ko mag-GM ng lyrics from that song na tlagang bumagay sa mood ko..

"dahil katulad mo, ako rin ay nagbago
di na tayo katulad ng dati.
kay bilis ng sandali.
O kay tagal kitang minahal.."

things change.i've written about it tons of times before.i've told myself over and over again that things really do change.INCLUDING me.alangan naman lahat magbabago, ako lang hinde?we all create the changes in everyone.each event that happens contributes to a change.okaaaay that sounded extremely weird.

"di na tayo katulad ng dati." hindi na nga. what happened?ay.don't answer.i know perfectly well what happened.masasagot din yun ng sumunod na lines.

"kung iisipin mo, di naman dating ganito
teka muna, teka lang.
kelan tayo nailang?
kung iisipin mo, di naman dating ganito
kay bilis kasi ng buhay.
pati tayo natangay..
O kay tagal din kitang minahal.."

"kelan tayo nailang?" pag nagkailangan na, mahirap na.kasi, parang biglang nawawala lahat.lahat ng pinagsamahan, napagusapan.. in short, all of the memories ay biglang nababalewala na lang. dahil sa "nailang." :(

so i tried to focus on other things. tawag ko dun doTa therapy. sure enough, it worked! i felt.. weird. i tried not to think too much about it and i lived freely. i enjoyed hanging out, i enjoyed writing, i enjoyed pc games, of course. theraphy nga eh. and i kept telling myself that i didn't care anymore. basta masaya ako ngaun, yun na yun. wapakels.

and then one day.. it suddenly dawned on me.i was listening to my ipod. bigla ko itong narinig. tapos..

"tinatawag kita, sinusuyo kita.
di mo man marinig.
di mo man madama.
o kay tagal din kitang mamahalin.."

i still cared. a lot. i was kidding myself by pouring all my time into other stuff, trying to forget. sure it worked, but i also realized i needed to think about it.nagkamali ako when i thought na kaya ko lang iwanan basta basta yung sitawasyon. so i thought about it. ayun. naadik ako sa burnout, na super lumang kanta na. nagGM ako ng lyrics, and a lot of people texted me saying "bakit andrama mo?"

nagreply ako sa isa in a joking manner. "minsan na nga lang ako magdrama, pagbgyan nyu na."

a friend told me over and over again: "drama mo."
sabi ko naman: "asa pa.alam nyu namang manhid ako."
and he replied: "asa ka."

sooo.anu na ngaun? i stopped sending dramatic GMs.haha.yung lyrics lang naman kasi talaga ng burnout ang gusto kong ipagpalandakan nun eh.ok na ko. i've thought about it. and yun nga, dba. I DO CARE. at..

masaya parin ako. kaya wapakels.

xD

love for a song

aryan and i were listening to a very old song last friday:Ocean Avenue by Yellowcard.it's a pretty upbeat song but we both agreed that "it's a sad song." listen to the lyrics, listen to the way he sings. no matter now fast a song is, it can be classified as sad. and that's one of the reasons why i like Ocean Avenue.

i like a song because of:

1. the beat - i don't like slow love songs. i like bouncy songs, fast and upbeat songs. songs with a really great sound. that when you sing them, you feel great. ang sarap magwala. examples: The Suffering by Coheed and Cambria, Almost by Bowling for Soup and Basketcase by Green Day.

2. the lyrics - no matter how great the beat is.. if the lyrics suck, the song sucks too. The lyrics of Alanis are really amazing. they stick to your mind, and aryan said na lagi daw may pinapatamaan. some songs are.. parang pinilit lang isulat. but some songs come from the soul and the lyrics show just that. i also like songs that tell a story, like Teenage Dirtbag by Wheatus. songs with funny lyrics also have a great impact on me, like Almost by Bowling for Soup. meanwhile, A Day Late by Anberlin is a song many people can relate to. the lyrics of Coheed are unpredictable..listen to A Favor House Atlantic, for example.

3. the way the vocalist sings - this is the reason why we defined Ocean Avenue as a sad song. listen to it well. the way the vocalist sings.. you can feel the emotions. Green Day's Billie Joe Armstrong used to sing that way too--you could see how he feels just by listening to him sing.now, he sings differently.wala na maxadong soul. The vocalist of Taking Back Sunday, Adam Lazara, really has a great impact on me. their songs are fast, upbeat, but his voice, no matter how loud, has another effect. sad, na parang nanghihinayang na ewan.


songs that completed all three requirements for me:
1. Time of Your Life by Green Day
2. A Day Late by Anberlin
3. You're so Last Summer by Taking Back Sunday
4. Dammit by Blink 182
5. Teenage Dirtbag by Wheatus
(click the titles of the songs to look at the lyrics)

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