15 weird things about me

i wanted to blog but i couldn't think of anything to blog about.so i decided to do this, because i was tagged by patty.

1. i love to eat green mangoes dipped in soysauce and sugar mixed together. yum.

2. i like buying stuff that i like, even though i know i'll never use any of those.i know it's like wasting money, but that's what i do.weird.

3. i always carry a folding umbrella inside my bag but i never use it. [sometimes,when i'm with someone i let him/her use it.]

4. i don't like sweeping. [pagwawalis.] you can tell me to husk or even wax the floor or wipe the windows, and i'll do that. just don't tell me to sweep.

5. i still play sims. :)

6. i never let go of my cellphone.

7. i make my 5-year old brother and 4-year old sister watch Happy Tree Friends.mumsy says maybe that's the reason why the two of them are trying to kill each other now.

8. i like adam sandler's movies. [esp. 50 First Dates]

9. i cut my own hair.well, i used to.

10.i can be so frank sometimes, and sometimes i can really lie.

11.i like to go out even though i don't know where i'm going to go or what i'm going to do.

12.i can't say i like a song if i haven't read the lyrics yet.

13.i hate it when i'm carrying too much stuff.as much as possible, i want all of my stuff inside my bag.

14.i murder ice cream.

15.i had a hard time answering this. :D

burnout

yep.super old song.by sugarfree.but i can't help it.it's been my theme song for the past days..weeks pala.last weekend nga eh, ang hilig ko mag-GM ng lyrics from that song na tlagang bumagay sa mood ko..

"dahil katulad mo, ako rin ay nagbago
di na tayo katulad ng dati.
kay bilis ng sandali.
O kay tagal kitang minahal.."

things change.i've written about it tons of times before.i've told myself over and over again that things really do change.INCLUDING me.alangan naman lahat magbabago, ako lang hinde?we all create the changes in everyone.each event that happens contributes to a change.okaaaay that sounded extremely weird.

"di na tayo katulad ng dati." hindi na nga. what happened?ay.don't answer.i know perfectly well what happened.masasagot din yun ng sumunod na lines.

"kung iisipin mo, di naman dating ganito
teka muna, teka lang.
kelan tayo nailang?
kung iisipin mo, di naman dating ganito
kay bilis kasi ng buhay.
pati tayo natangay..
O kay tagal din kitang minahal.."

"kelan tayo nailang?" pag nagkailangan na, mahirap na.kasi, parang biglang nawawala lahat.lahat ng pinagsamahan, napagusapan.. in short, all of the memories ay biglang nababalewala na lang. dahil sa "nailang." :(

so i tried to focus on other things. tawag ko dun doTa therapy. sure enough, it worked! i felt.. weird. i tried not to think too much about it and i lived freely. i enjoyed hanging out, i enjoyed writing, i enjoyed pc games, of course. theraphy nga eh. and i kept telling myself that i didn't care anymore. basta masaya ako ngaun, yun na yun. wapakels.

and then one day.. it suddenly dawned on me.i was listening to my ipod. bigla ko itong narinig. tapos..

"tinatawag kita, sinusuyo kita.
di mo man marinig.
di mo man madama.
o kay tagal din kitang mamahalin.."

i still cared. a lot. i was kidding myself by pouring all my time into other stuff, trying to forget. sure it worked, but i also realized i needed to think about it.nagkamali ako when i thought na kaya ko lang iwanan basta basta yung sitawasyon. so i thought about it. ayun. naadik ako sa burnout, na super lumang kanta na. nagGM ako ng lyrics, and a lot of people texted me saying "bakit andrama mo?"

nagreply ako sa isa in a joking manner. "minsan na nga lang ako magdrama, pagbgyan nyu na."

a friend told me over and over again: "drama mo."
sabi ko naman: "asa pa.alam nyu namang manhid ako."
and he replied: "asa ka."

sooo.anu na ngaun? i stopped sending dramatic GMs.haha.yung lyrics lang naman kasi talaga ng burnout ang gusto kong ipagpalandakan nun eh.ok na ko. i've thought about it. and yun nga, dba. I DO CARE. at..

masaya parin ako. kaya wapakels.

xD

kahit kelan talaga

ugh.grabe.i have two days to find a place to stay for college.san ba ko magka-college?diba sa UPLB?and diba i've lived here for almost all my life.haha.pti nung high school.dito nga ako nakatira sa kanila lola eh.but enough is enough.ang sama ko na tlaga.my father finally decided na di na ako pwede tumira sa kanila lola.maxadu ata sila nasstress dahil sa pag-uwi ko ng late palagi.kaya ayun.it's either dorm ako [wow] or sa house ng kung sinu man.i'm working on it.i have to find my options.aaargh.

REG!!ang tanga tanga mo talaga eh!kelangan pa pala umabot sa ganto?!

oh.eto pa pala.pag wala ako nahanap within those two days, patay ako.haha.di nga.hindi ako magreregsiter sa may10, at 2nd sem na ako papasok.waaahAYOKO!Ö kaya swear, gagawin ko lahat para makapasok this sem.kaya ko to.woO!gO reg! haha. tama ba namang i-cheer ang sarili?Ü

sori sa walang kwentang post.gusto ko lang mag-post eh.wehe.

bitter 16?ahaha.

yak bday ko na.haha.wala lang.dapat daw sweet 16?nyehe.panget pakinggan eh. ^^
anyway..yun.ang tanda ko na.at since bday ko naman,pwede akong mag wish kahit na hindi pa kumpleto ang 100 yellow cars at kahit na hindi ko na-hold ang breath ko pag akyat sa elevator, at kahit wala akong naapakang linya ng pedestrian lane.hehe.

gusto ko ng bagong sneakers.
gusto ko din ng bagong tsinelas.
gusto ko ng tsinelas galing sa Tribu.
gusto kong patayin ang nag-hack sa o2jam account ko.
gusto kong maglaro ng doTa ulit. [kahapon,nagdoTa ang amigas. Ü at suri sa KS teammates!]
gusto ko ng magsimula ng summer job ko.
gusto ng bahay na airconditioned. [ahaha.]
gusto ko ng UNLITXT forever.
gusto ko ng bumalik sa dati kong kulay bago kami nag-CAT.
gusto ko ng magpa-xray para sa registration ko for college.
gusto kong makita ulit si celsius. [yaak.haha.]
gusto ko pa ng pizza.
gusto ko mag-coffee blends.
gusto ko ng ice cream.[preferably coffee crumble,chocopeanut or pistacchio.]
gusto ko ng isa pang Artwork shirt.
gusto ko ng bubblegum sprite float at large fries ng McDo. :p
gusto ko tumangkad.kahit onti lang.
gusto kong mag-high school ulit with the same batchmates.
in short,gusto kong wag magtapos ang high school.

at..

gusto ko na bumalik yung.. yun. basta yun.